hard to believe her motive

I read this book, hoping to try to understand, what drove this woman, to do, what she did. I found it hard to believe her story, that she was so fearful of her mother (she was a grown woman at one point) to just have these babies alone in a house, with only her mother present, and then doesn't remember anything of the birth, or how the babies died. She blames her mother for their deaths. Why didn't she just go to a hospital like she did for all her other children, that lived. It was evident to me, she didnt want these children, (she thought of them as bastards) and choose to just have them, and let them die. To hide them in a storage unit for years, until its contents were sold for non payment, tells me she is of limited intelligence, or just thought she would never get caught. I found it very hard to have sympathy towards her, and I usually would, but in this case, she was a grown woman who could have told her mother to but out. But she didn't, and chose what she was convicted of. I come from Queens NY, so I wanted to read this story, but I find her actions outrageous.At any time, if what she is saying were true, she could have gone to the police. She claims abuse and rape by her father and brother. The brother is still alive, and refutes her allegations. The babies that died, she didn't want to be with the fathers, the ones that lived, she was living with their fathers. She chose to murder her own infants because they meant nothing to her. Keeping their bodies was just some morbid lunacy on her part. This is how she got caught, karma.

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