text: Destiny No turning back 
   
   
     
   
  Chapter 1 
  June 1st Dear Diary, 
  As you may know I am pregnant and I have no idea what to do. It all happened about a week ago when I saw Mike cheating on me, I went over to his house to tell him. I saw him through the window making out with another girl. That other girl was my best friend. So Mike has no idea i'm pregnant and I have no intention of telling him either.  
  June 5th 
  Oh, Diary today was the worst,I saw mike in the hallway and he pretended like nothing happened. I wanted to hit him, but I held myself back. I can't believe he would act like that.UGH! 
  June 15 
  Sorry I haven't written in a while but I have been so busy to write much of anything at the moment. So much has happened and I can't write all of it down . First my friend(the one that I cought) Said that Mike made her make out with him(Lier). so I have been doing everything that I can to avoid her. Also I am starting to get a little bigger then I used to be, Why can't life be easy? 
  Chapter 2 
  June 27th 
  I found out that I'm due on April 2ed and I have to wait another couple of months to see if it's a boy of girl. I still haven't told my mom, because she will freak out and I can't deal with that right now. I haven't told Mike yet and I hope I never will have to tell him. I hate how much bigger i've gotten and I can't wait to get the baby out of my stomach. 
  July 3ed 
  I can't really keep out with writing in you as I could because I have so much stuff I have to do and I don't have anyone to help me. I wish life was like the people in the movies who get pregnant, but sadly it isn't. 
  July 20th 
  Haven't written in  awhile I have been really busy. Some people found out that I was preggers and now the whole school knows! So I just didn't have the heart to write in you .Also Mike found out that I was pregers and he wants nothing to do with the baby,so I don't expect any help form him . I am starting to show more and more. I just want to get rid of the baby so I can move on with my life. 
  Augest 12th 
  I have been so busy picking out stuff for the baby, I had to get a job because my mom won't help me, because she thinks the baby is the biggest mistake I have ever made. Then we got into a really big fight because I feel the exact opposite. My baby is no mistake, he or she was a surprise. So now I am living in my friends house with no support from my mother. 
  Chapter 3 
  September 3ed 
  I found out today at the doctors that I am having a girl. I was going to tell Mike but I figured he really didn't care so I decided against it. I have quit using meth when I found I was going to have a baby. Every once in a while I want to use but I decide against it for the better of my baby. 
  September 20th 
  I Felt my baby kick! I am so excited!!!! I can't wait to see her when she comes out. I always talk to my baby, I found out that they can  recognize the mom's voice. SO CUTE. To bad the daddy won't be here to see the baby come out. I was really hopping that my baby wouldn't be with out a daddy. 
  October 5th 
  I have decided to go with my friends to a halloween party. I figure why can't I have a little fun for once in a while. 
  Chapter 4 
  November 1st 
  What have I done? I was there at the party having a really good time when someone handed me a drink. I thought that one little drink couldn't hurt the baby. One turned into a lot and now I have to go to the doctor to see if I hurt the baby or not. I am such a BAD MOMMY! 
  November 8th 
  Everything seemed to be ok. I didn't harm her in anyway the doctor said that she would be ok. I hope he was right. As of today I will not drink another drink until she is born. 
  December 1st 
  I can't wait until the baby is born. I want to give her everything that my mom couldn't give me. As a child my mother never got me anything for Christmas because we couldn't afford it. So I am going to get my baby everything that she needs and wants. 
  December 25th  
  My mother and I haven't made up and I am still living with my friend. I am sad that she won't spend Christmas with me or my baby. I really wish she would understand that keeping the baby is my choice not hers. 
  Chapter 5 
  January 3ed 
  I am SO big! I have decided on a name for my baby. I am going to name her Grace Marie Thompson. I love that name and I want everyone to be there when she is born. I am soooo happy. 
  January 18th  
  I am so scared to have my baby. I want everything to go right. I called my mother and told her that I wanted her to be there when Grace was born. She said that she would! I am so happy because I don't know a thing about baby's. 
  February 17th 
  I have been getting things like clothing and diapers for my baby. I really want her dad to be there but I have decided not to invite him because if he doesn't want to be part of my baby's life then he isn't worth it. 
  March 20th 
  The date is closing in so fast! I am scared because I think that it is going to hurt and I don't want it to hurt. I have packed my bag to get ready to go. 
  March 25th 
  I am in the hospitle because the baby is early and I am scared because I don't think they are supposed to came early. Got to go doctors here 
  Chapter6 
  March 30th 
  I am back from the hospitle and I am with my baby. She was born on the 26th at 7am. I hope I can be a good mother to the baby. I am so tired and I will talk to you later I have a baby to take care of. :) 
  April 2ed 
  I have gotten no sleep in the past 2 days! I had to take some of my stash of meth to keep from falling asleep while Grace is awake. I know I said that I was done with meth, but I just really needed it, and it can't hurt to take a little right.? 
  April 10th 
  Grace is asleep and I figured that I might as well take the time to write in you. I am still taking meth(just to stay awake though) and I feel like such a good mommy. I spend all of my free time with Grace. I brought her to school once and she had a blast! I have to go I think that she is waking up. 
  April 23ed 
  I am a horriable person! My mom had to go out so she couldn't watch grace while I slept. So I was playing with her and I laid her down for her nap. I thought that it wouldn't hurt if I took a nap. My mom wakes me up and I thought that she was gone. As it turns out my baby had gotten out of her crib and was stuck in the bathroom! I feel like such a bad person! I could of seriously hurt my baby because of all the meth I had taken I crashed, I will never let that happen again.Ever! 
  May 1st 
  I took Grace outside to play in the grass, while I played with her. We had a great time and I thought that she was the cutest thing just playing in the grass and looking at the trees. It was the best time that I had ever had. 
  May 8th 
  Took some meth to stay awake and I played with the baby. I think that I need some time away from her. So I am going out tonight with my friends and my mom is babysitting. 
  May 10th 
  I had the best time with my friends I need to do it more often. I am thinking about going out tonight! :) 
  Chapter 7 
  May 17th 
  I have gone out with my friends all this week and I kinda feel bad that I haven't spent much time with my baby, but she's got my mom so everything is okay. 
  June 2ed 
  I can't believe my mom! she is leaving so I have to watch my baby. not that I don't love my baby, but I need some me time. 
  June 8th  
  My friends came over while my mom was at work, we smoked and hung out. I wish everyday could be like that. 
  June 17th 
  I think I am addicted to meth! I can't stop using and I don't know why. I had to pawn off some of my stuff to buy more meth I needed the meth though. 
  Chapter 8 
  June 27th 
  I can't stop using and I feel like such a bad person. I spend all of my free time with my baby, and she enjoys being around me. I think that I really need to give of meth before I do Something really stupid. 
  July 4th 
  I am taking the baby to see the fireworks and smoke some meth. I am excited to take my baby somewhere I think that she will enjoy. 
  July 5th 
  I really screwed up! I was at the fireworks with me baby And I didn't see that she was headed to the water... and I just barely heard her cry. So I saved her from the water and I had to explain to my mom what had happened. She Was PISSED! 
  July 7th 
  I went out and I pissed my mom off by doing it thought but i think that she will get over it. I need some time for me and the meth. 
  Chapter 9 
  September 1st 
  I don't know where the time has gone. I am still living with my mom and my baby is starting to walk. I look so different then I once was. My hair is nasty because I just stopped caring, and my face is pale and skinny. 
  September 8th 
  My mom has filed for custady of my baby. She thinks that I am in unfit mother to be raising a child!!!! That Bitch!! Grace isn't hers! I am a fit parent and I will prove it to my mom. 
  Chapter 10 
  October 3ed 
  My mom is still going to file for custady of my baby. She hasn't changer her mind. She found out that I sold some of the baby clothing for meth and she is set on getting custady of my baby. She won't get it though I will make of that. 
  October 20th 
  Tomarrow is the court day and I will see if I get to keep my baby or not. Mom will never get custady of my child I will make sure of that tonight... 
  October 21st 
  Today is the court date and my mom is a no show. I get to keep my baby and my can say nothing about it. I have to get out of here and I know exactly where to go where they can never touch my baby. 
  October 27th 
  I had to do what I had to do. I killed my mom and ran off with my baby, I told her she would never get the chance to have my baby. We are wanted because I ran off with the baby, and the system wants my baby they will never have her. We are on our way to New York to live with a friend of mine, at the moment the bus is a a gas station and I am smoking some meth. I will never give up my baby. I will kill anyone to protect my baby... 
  November 7th 
  As it turns out my baby has some issues that I didn't know about. All she does is CRY! I can't get her to stop, so I went to the doctor and found out that it was because of the meth I took while I had the baby. She will have defects when she gets older you can sorta tell right now but not really. It turns out that they will be much worse when she gets older. So I screwed up on giving my baby a good start in life and now because of what I did she will pay the price.  
  November 16th 
  All I want to do is cry! They found my mom and are looking for me so I need to keep the baby safe and with me. They have no idea what will happen and I think it might be bad but all I can do is hope that the baby will be safe. I feel like a terrabile parent but I need my meth right now and the baby is asleep so it will be okay right.... 
  November 17th 
  I awoke to the baby crying and I feel horrable for letting her cry. I fell asleep at 6 and noe its4 in the morning I wonder how long she had been crying for. I change her and feed her and put her back to bed. I can't  go on like this for much longer I am so depressed all the time and I don't think that I can handle it much longer....I need to consider my options and I need to do it fast. 
  December 1st 
  There was a knock at my door today. It was the police and I was charged with the murder of my mother. So they took the baby and I am all alone in my cell right now. I am thinking of all the thinks that I will be missing like her birthdays and her first christmas. I want to see her so badly but I can't and I have 7 years to figure out what to do. I cannot see my Grace and I probally never will I miss her so much and I want to see her so bad. She got a nice foster family I hear so she will be well cared for and I am attending meeting for my addiction so if all goes well I will be a better parent the next time. 
   
   
   Publication Date: April 23rd 2012 https://www.bookrix.com/-destiny316