text: Neshiap What's with all  the Drama Crazy life of a all around Teenager I dedicate this book to everyone who has went through this. 
   
   
    Crazy life 
   
    Today, for me was a very bad day. I never thought my life could get this worse. I never thought that this much drama could take place in one school. In my life. This was not good. Not good at all. 
    This is what happened:  
  I was leaving first period to go to my next class when Keyone walked up to me, handed me a folded up piece of paper, and walked off. After I received the paper I decided that I would wait until I made it to my next period class  to read it. So I slipped it into my hello kitty backpack and walk along to my next class.  
  When I got to my next period class, which was art and poetry class I slid into my desk and looked inside my bag to retrieve the note. As I pulled the note out I unfolded it and began to read. It read: 
  Dear Kaitlin, 
  This have been on my mind for awhile now and I couldn’t ask you this because i was currently in a relationship with Lanisha , as you know, but Nisha and I are way over so I feel that I can ask you now. Well Kaitlin I have been feelinq you for a long time, I couldn’t tell you because I was with someone. I tried very hard to try and end the whole thing between us but she wouldn’t let me. But this past weekend she gave me a reason to end it with her. I caught her fooling around with chase. Even though I wasn’t hurt I played it off and told her that we was over and that she bet not even think about calling or texting my damn phone again. I know you probably don’t wana hear this bull but wht I’m trying to ask you is that if you don’t mind can we maybe chill some times?? Plz reply shawdii! 
  After I read this a smile kind of came across my face and I wrote back. I wrote this: 
  Uhh I’m impressed by your explanation and I would love to chill wiff you jus tell me when and where! 
  I folded the letter back up and stuck it back in my bag. I thought about this the hwole time that I was in second period. When the bell rang I hurried out the door with the rest of the students ithat wee happy to get out of this class. Not only was the teacher boring but the whole scenery of the classroom was lame, bland, and dull. 
  As soon as I got out of the door and started piece way down the hall I met up face to face with Keyone. Well actually I literally ran into him and almost fell but that’s another story. Anyway after he sort of caught me I stood up straight and said “hey Keyone wats up”. Keyone replied by saying :” naww don’t hey me and try to play like you just didn’t almost fall kuz shawddi if I wasn’t paying attention you would have hit your face on that floor. “ahahaha, very funni with your tall ass”. “ian that tall lil guh you just short as hell that’s all that is. “whateva but hea”. As I said this I handed Keyone the note and began to walk off but he pulled me back by the hood of my Coogi jacket. He pulled me a lil closer than I expected and whispered in my ear: “ I don’t feel like reading all this so jus tell me the answer now”! “yes, the answer is yes, I stated as I pulled away from him and gave him a slight smile. “ightt catch you lata then shawddi,” he said as he proceeded to his next class. 
  The other classes seemed to fly by or atleast they did to me because I was focused on Keyone during that time.  
  So I got to my next class period, which was gym and I quickly realized that Keyone was taking that class with me. I smiled to my self and began to walk in. What I didn’t know was that Lanisha also took that class with me, but I thought nun of it. So I walked on into the gym and I was quickly greeted by Keyone and his warm smile. He surprisingly gave me a hug and draped his long muscular arm around me as we approached a couple of his friends. I didn’t notice the evil look on Nisha’s face at first but after a few minutes of doing it I noticed it but ian care I just keep smiling away with Keyone an dthe rest of the football team. 
  His homeboys kept complimenting me and making lil comments like “ Damn Keyone she looks betta then nisha and she’s thicker.” Keyone looked at me then looked back at his home boys and said “ naaa me nd Kaitlin just friends for now not trying to push things of take shit to fast, we jus chillin for rite na, Ain’t that bout rite shawtti?” “yea that’s about rite tall ass” everybody started laughing when I said this. 
  After a few more minutes of talkin to Keyone and his home boys Keyone decided that he wanted to jus have sum quality time with me so he led me into the bleachers and we just sat there talking and laughing. When I paid attention Nisha was still staring me down so I turned keyone’s face towards me and said “ look I know you might still got feeling sfor her or whatever but if she keep mugging me we gone have some problems and that’s a promise”. Keyone laughed aloud then said,” aye aye aye….yo lil cockii ass ain’t got shit to worry bout. Me and Nisha over so don’t let thet get to you, um feeling you not her soo let her stare, shhh letta stare until she cant stare nomo. As long as she ain’t physical then boo you should be good”. “ boo?? Who said you could call me boo? Who gave you that kind of right?” “ well damn aite don’t worry bout me calling you boo nomo cause I square you jus blew up on me for like no apparent reason. Ion know whats troubling you but shawddi you really need to fix that kuz ion feel like arguing especially with you”. “ what’s that suppose to mean”, I asked. “ nun um just saying doe…rite na you the only female I want to be with and her lookin at you don’t mean nun soo jus be like fuck her and go on with your day, and plus you suppose to be putting all your attention on me.” “ ahahah okae I got you and I sowwi for going off, I just don’t like ha looking at me funni. “ don’t worry bout it boo” “ okae I replied”. Just as he said this the bell rang and he took my hand and led me down the bleachers and onto the floor. We were still holding hands when Nisha came running up and cut right in the middle of us and turned to Keyone and started talking. Before I knew it I grabbed her hair and slung her on the floor. Keyone grabbed me and picked me up before I could hit her in her face. All I remember is Keyone carrying me to the office and looking at me in the eyes and saying “ boo you gota learn to control yourself….you jus almost killed thet guh”. And what if I did shit..what you protecting her cause she you ex.?” “ no I’m just saying doe you need to calm yo fucking nerves before you temper get you fucked up and by the way you keep bringing up me nd Nisha formal relationship I have made up my mind that I just wanna be friends with you cause I na been tryna get with you for two hours and we already arguing about my past. Damn look at your past I me Vonte was cheating on you, And you was cheating so damn yo [past aint that perfect so fuk it and if you don’t wana be friends then let it be that way.”  
  After letting me get any words out Keyone walked out and slammed the door. By time I finished receiving my punishment it was time to go home so I walked out of the office and into the crowded hallways. Keyone was standing at his locker looking like he had been thinking about what happened all day. I slowly approached him and said,  “hey” “hey”, he said back. Aye Keyone text me when you get home kuz we really need to talk. “ ohh so now you wana talk,,,well look if we gone text then you betta straighten thet fuckin attitude up. Kuz I can’t fukin  take it right now. Um getting ova a damn break up ad um actually feeling like I cared about her and you wana act a ass with me…I can’t take that attitude I just fucking can’t Kaitlin!! “ okae I fucking get you ight ian gone blow up nomo”, I said starting to cry “just text me kuz I gotta tell you sum.” “before he could try to stop me from crying I ran off and got in the car where my mama asked what was wrong with me. “nun”,I replied just take me home please.” When I got home I just ran up to my room closed my door and started crying. Afew minutes later I got a text that started this conversion: 
  Keyone: hey 
  Me: uhh hey  
  Keyone: what you had to tell me? 
  Me: well wen you was going off on me I noticed that you said that you might have realized that you wcared bout Lanisha a lot. Nd well it kind of hurt me and I thought that that was why you got mad when I hit her. So uma back off from the whole thing between yall so bye….ion even wana talk nomo….plz dnt make it harder and text back…jus leave me alone please!! 
  Keyone: Kaitlin please don’t do this, you should understand that it gone take a few days to get ova the whole relationship…look please don’t do this nd I promise you betta text back gur. 
  Me: see thea you go with all that dam threating, and plus you said we should just friends cause I have a bhad attitude. 
  Keyone: boo 
  Keyone: I said boo 
  Keyone: Kaitilin chill out and text me back rite now 
  Keyone: gur stop fukin playing and text me back 
  Keyone: well guess what you gotta come to skool toma so uma see you then nd we can talk.  
  Keyone: nite Kait!!!!! <3 
  After ignoring all of these texts I just took a hot bath and cried myself to sleep.  
  The next morning I woke up and decided that I couldn’t take looking at Keyone of Lanisha so I told my mom that I didn’t feel well and she let me stay home. I thought that I had escaped and got at least one day away from my personal problem when it came walking through my door. That evening after school my mama came up to my room and said,  “ Kait you have a visitor and he brought your homework”. I was confused at first then I saw who it was and I started sweating. My mom must didn’t notice it cause she said, “well uma leave you two alone for a minute.” After that she left my room leaving me and Keyone there alone… He just looked at me a minute before saying “ Kait what the hell is going on with you?” “nun okae but why are you here, in my house, in my room?” “ kuz I wana know what the fuk is wrong with you I mean you just tryna stop fuking with me for no reason, I mean dam um jus getting out a relationship that I na been in for two years…so yea I still care about Nisha but shit didn’t I tell you how I felt bout you.” “look you feeling her so just fuck it aite I can’t take it okae” then I started crying and screaming and before my mom got a chance to run up to my room Keyone already had grabbed me and was just sitting on the floor with me holding me while I cried like a lil ass babie. When my mama got there she asked what was going on and Keyone jus told her that I was going through some personal problems. 
  A few minutes after I finished crying I jus sat there still in Keyone’s arms but then he got a text and I read the name so I demanded he give me his phone.. he refused so I snatched it and went through it and saw where him and Nisha had been texting and they were talkin like they were back together. My eyes got watery again I just threw his phone to him and told him to get the fuck out my house. He left and I went to bed early again.  
  They next morning I forced myself to go to school. My eyes were still red but I went. So when I got to school I walked in the cafeteria where I met up with Keyone so I just walked off and he tried his best to talk to me but I just ignored him. All my classes went slow and when I did get to gym I had to deal with Keyone trying to talk to me…I wasn’t hearing what he was talking about so I jus kept ignoring him then he started getting mad and cursing…I then got a text that said that my grandma had just died…. Right den my heart just skipped a beat and my eyes got watery…. I felt sick…like I had to throwup….i put my hands over my mouth and ran to the restroom…leaving my phone and all behind. I guess Keyone read the message kuz when I got back…eyes bloodshot red. He just looked at me for awhile then he said “ Kait…Kaitlin” I did’nt say anything but when I did I stopped breathing…I couldn’t breath… Keyone must figured that out too kuz he rushed me to the nurse where she put me on the oxygen machine. She then sent me to the emergency room. Where Me and Keyone sat there until my mom came there…she was already crying and I was too..i felt like I couldn’t take nomore….i just wanted to go away…away from everyone…everything. My grandma was dead what would I do without her here?? Me and mi mom went home and I went up to my room where I laid across my bed and remembered the good times me and my grandma had had when she was here.  
  Then I got a text from keyone it said this: 
  Keyone: you have every reason to hate me…every reason to hate me. Every reason to not wana talk to me. And I understand that. But when I saw you cry and saw that message and saw that it hurt you so bad that you threwup and stopped breathing I saw that I had to stop what I was doing. I had to stop hurting you in so many ways. I know ur not in the mood rite now but I want you to know that you and your family are in my prayers tonight…I hope you are alrite…. I hope  your g-ma R.I.P 
  Me: Keyone my mama is gone to do the arrangments and ion wana be here by myself… um scared kuz thoughts of killing myself have been going through my head….please just come and hurry I need somebody please!!!! 
  Keyone arrived moments later and I just broke down in his arms…he laid on the couch with me and rocked me to sleep. While I was sleep I felt keyone tighten his embrace around my waist. I woke up and looked at him.. He just laid there looking in my eyes. I got up and sat on the other couch “ why you move Kait”? “ I can’t lay with you right now… I’m starting to care for you all over again and I …… I just can’t do that. You and Nisha are back together and ion wana mess that up… “ wait …. Wait Kait me and Nisha aren’t back together… I just couldn’t make up my mind but I finally did… don’t believe me then read all these texts.. I did and I found out that he actually had picked me…. He grabbed me and we laid there why I cried once more… He decided that I shouldn’t just stay in the house crying so he said “ aye lets go for a walk” I got up and we went out the door and started walking aroung the block as we talked… the convo went like this: 
  Keyone: You okae. Looks like you got a lot on your mind. 
  Me: yea I kinda do 
  Keyone: well um here for you boo soo jus spill 
  Me: well to began with my grandma died and you just won’t be good and go a day without makin me cry or mad! 
  Keyone: awwh bae um sorry and I know it’s hard about your grandma but you have to be strong for your mother and you lil sister right??? 
  Me: right…it’s just hard doe I mean me and my grandma was soo close 
  Keyone: I understand that but you gotta be strong okae. 
  Me: okae I understand 
  Keyone: its Friday don’t you have something to do?? 
  Me: you really gone ask me that….do you have something to do tonite or sum?? 
  Keyone: naww 
  Me: well if I ask my ma if you can stay over wud you 
  Keyone: of course um here for you bae you know that!! 
  Me: okae….bet thet up nd so now um ur bae?? 
  Keyone: yea you are…I mean you have your moments sometimes, but you still my big babe 
  Me: sooo uhhh not to be nosy or anything but how did you get over that “still being in love with Nisha thing?? 
  Keyone: I found out how much I really liked you! 
  After he said this I looked at him and he moved closer and kissed me…when he pulled away. I must admit, I was gone for a quick second. 
  Uhhh ohh okae just had to make sure.. Keyone and I began to walk back towards my house when he said that he would be back later. He said that he had somethings to do. 
  I went back in the house and up to my room where I laid across my bed and wrote in my diary. This is what I wrote: 
            Dear diary, 
  I haven’t been doing so good with the death of my grandmother and on top of that my new boyfriend has been tripping. I have spent most of the week crying,mad and stressing. But after Keyone told me how he really felt I began to feel better…he might be staying over tonight……I feel safer and better. 
  After I finished writing in my diary I closed it and picked up my Samsung Galaxy S ll. I put in the password and saw that I had a text from my momma back and said that I could have Keyone stay with me because she wasn’t coming home that night and thet I needed to pick un my little sister, Ashonte, up from my aunt’s house. 
  I text Keyone and told him and when he finally made it over we went to pick up Ashonte. 
  Me and Keyone talked the whole way to my aunt’s house. We talked about different stuff. It was a great conversation. So when we got to my aunt’s house and picked up Ashonte we head back to my house so we could just chill. When we got back me and Keyone decided to invite out closest homeboy/homegirl over. So Keyone had Adrew come over and I invited Nichole, and we decided that we was gone try and hook them up while they was over.   
  They both showed up at the same time so we invited them in and told them to have a seat. Nichole was up in her room so we decided to play truth or dare. When it was Andrew’s time Keyone dared him to tongue kiss Nichole. Nichole was the type of girl that didn’t like to admit that she likes someone until he asks her out so she was sayin hell no.. real loud…. So Andrew grabbed her wrists and held her down and stuck his tongue in her mouth.. to be mad and upset she sure didn’t try to fight him off that hard. But anyway when it was Keyone Turn Ashonte Dared him to give me a lap dance.. Keyone took my hand and led me to the empty chair on the other side of the room. I sat there while Andrew turned on some music and keyone began to grind all on me..then he opened my legs and continued to grind on me… at this point I just wanted to ughhhhh…..Andrew cut off the music a few moments later and Keyone got up and looked back at me with a half smile.. I just looked down at the floor, Smiling to myself. After that I went up to check on Nichole, she was sound asleep so I went back downstairs with Keyone them and we just finished having fun!  
  When me and Keyone looked over at Ashonte  and Andrew they were flirting… Then Ashonte did what she always do. She tried to play rough with Andrew but ended up making him mad. This is how it went. 
  Andrew: Um surprise you actually talking to me kuz yhu usually give a nigga a hard time. 
  Ashonte: Look dnt worry bout how I treat a nigga. U betta b glad I was treating yo ass sorta right. 
  Andrew: look broad but u act like yhu doing me a favor by talking to me.. ahaha…shawtti I gets females like clock work so u betta b glad that im actually talking to your fucked ego having ass. 
  Ashonte: look you know what… I hate males like you. Yall always saying some like yall can pull me.. guess what busta..you can’t pull me an dthats a fact 
  Andrew: shhh I almost did so you can chill wit that stupid shyt. 
  Ashonte: nigga dismiss yoselv 
  Andrew: bitch dismiss yoselv kuz all I wanted to do was hit nd quit that anyway..trust boo yeen got that much I want! 
  Ashonte: just…uhhhh.. 
   
  After that Ahonte started crying and left out the room. Keyone started laughing…say, “DAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMNNNNNN SHAWTTI U GOT PUT ON BLAST>>>>DAMMmmNNNNN!!!”, I shot him a dirty look and walked out behind her. Then when I started walking back to the living room I over heard Keyone and Andrew. Keyone was putting Andrew in his place. So when I walked in they shot up and Drew walked out in the direction of where Shonte was. When I walked over to Keyone I gave him a punch in the arm and a evil look and said, “why the fuck you gone start laughing when that girl started crying, I mean that boy really hurt her feelings.” And Keyone gone say, “aye ian tell her to let her fucked up attitude get in the way of her personal life, but what I know is that when Drew said that he just want to hit that and she aint got nun he want was funny as hell” “ that shit wasn’t funny Keyone and you need to sit down cause I don’t why I even talk to your ignorant ass” “ what the fuck you jumping down my throat for Kait I mean damn I thought this was America and that I had the right to freedom of speech and plus your damn mouth gets you in trouble too! “ I mean you can’t fucking tell me what to do so sit yo bossy ass down before I put you in your damn place lil pissy ass guh!.” Then I replied by saying,. “ you know what tonight is not the night for you damn temper. Fuck staying over here you can get your ass out I mean you don’t have to stay shit you really don’t. Then Keyone said, “ shit then let it be I mean ian gotta stay like you said, but shawddi I was doing yo stupid ass a favor you the one calling crying to me about your damn family problems. Shit I was doing good when you was supposingly mad at me.” “ I’ll leave you here by yo damn self.” I just looked at him for a few then I walked out like Ashonte had previously did but when I got in the door way Keyone grabbed me and push me up against the wall. I guess he had heard what I said before I turned around to exit. His eyes were all red and shit now like he had been smoking more than he usually did. Anyways he pushed me up against the wall and said, “what the fuck did you just say, did you just say fuck me and my family…wait….. wait hold up na bitch fuck you and your family. shit um over here trying to cheer you up bout a old dead ass woman that I didn’t even know.. fuck her, fuck yo stupid ass mama, and fuck that lil bitch upstairs. And most of all fuck you.”  
  When he said this I got mad and push his off of me. But when I did he reacted by throwing me across the coffee table and then throwing me into the wall causing the family miral to fall. But luckily it was on the other end or I would have been over. I guess this made a lot of noise because Drew and Shonte ran in and Drew grabbed Keyone because he was fina hit me again. So Drew grabbed Keyone and pushed him in the other room and Shonte helped me up and over to the couch… That’s when I found out that not only was I bleeding a lot but that Nichole was looking at the whole thing. When I looked at her she still had tears rolling down her face as she ran back up to her room… “OMG!” I screamed as I saw her. When I tried to  get up to try and talk, Keyone walked back in looking mad as hell. Andrew was right behind him. “ aye Shonte you gone stay here with Kait tonight..ian staying I gotta hold it down with mii bro. he in thet mode” “ okae boo”,Shonte said. So they walked out thet door and I went to clean myself up. When I got done I went to talk to Nichole. 
  I hadn’t talked to Keyone since that night. So when I got to school the next day I went to my locker and he was at his. I tried not to look over but it was just something telling me to and as soon as I did he slammed his locker shut and walked pass me gave me that evil look and said “ boo bitch what you looking at”. I just shook my head and walked off too. I wasn’t suppose to be at school because I was still bruised pretty badly and well I had to cover the cuts with makeup and I had to do every thing slowly and carefully because if I tried to stay home I would have to explain to my mom why and that would just end in a disaster. Gym was very difficult  I tried to  run and exercise but I was just hurting to much so I just sat in the middle of the floor and cried. Lanisha was loving this because she was laughing but instead of Keyone laughing with her he just looked and shook his head.  
  I thought that everything was going to be better once I got home but boy was I wrong. Turns out my little sister, Nichole can’t keep her big ass mouth shut. she went and told everything that went on that night. So when I got home my momma was mad and crying. After she finished cursing and hollering at me we went to the E.R. where I had some x-rays done and was prescribed some pain killers. The doctor said that by the way I was bruised up that I would have to spend atleast a week out of school since I didn’t come straight to the hospital. I was sort of happy because it was pure hell being around Keyone most of the day at school. When I got home my mamma told me to go and get some rest and that she was fina go out and make some more arrangements for Grandma funeral. When I got to myy room I laid across my bed and when I closed my eyes I pictured every thing that was said and everything that happened that night and my eyes just filled with tears and I started crying. Then my phone rang and it was from a weird number. But I answered anyways and it turned out to be Keyone. He was like aye I just called because Mrs. Jay wanted to know why you ain’t at school. Then I said “well you should have the answer to that” then Keyone said” ohh ightt but u aite right?” “ kinda I gotta b outta school for a week so can you tell erbody that please? “ a whole damn week?” “yea ightt just tell everyone that ian gne b there for a week” “ uhh okae and im sorry didn’t know I had did that much. “ yea, well you did so bye”. After that I straight hung up in his damn face! Ian wana hear Keyone’s voice or see his face. That’s what made me mad. He would do evil shit then try to call me and apologize for it well it wasn’t going to happen this time… it really wasn’t. I wanted him to know that too soo I called him back and was like: 
  “aye um is this Keyone?” 
  “yea this me…whats up kay?” 
  “nun..but I just wanted to tell you that your lil routine of doing shit to hurt me and then apologizing ain’t gone work this time nigga. Cause um tired of it I really am…um done wit it and um done with you.” 
  “where the hell all this stupid shit coming from kay..i tried to tell you that I was sorry” 
  “well that mess ain’t going to work anymore. I mean my little sister saw the whole thing and she has been having nightmares about it every since. On top of that she thought she could solve that problem by talking to my mom. And when she did my mamma just went crazy, she’s already dealing with the death of her mamma and now she has to deal with the fact that she’s scared to send me to school because you want to abuse me. She’s even thinking about sending me to another fucking school. so yea I have to maybe leave my friends because you wanted to jump bad and throw me across a fucking glass coffee table. I thought that you wasn’t the type to hit a female. I thought you actually understood the fact that you was ALPHA MALE….that yea you were stronger then me and that you could put me in my place. But turns out you just a coward you have to prove yourself by fucking hitting me… and I hope you’re happy because the doctor said that you hit me so damn hard in my stomach that it’s a slight chance that you’ve messed up the chances of me having a damn child…but it’s all good probably wasn’t going to be by your unfaithful ass anyway. and I know that you and Nisha still talk on the down low and I really don’t give three fukks. As long as that bit----- 
  When I was about to say the B word I heard a voice in the background…it was familiar. The voice said “bae who are you calling on my phone. Tell them that you’ll call them back lata cause I got sum to show yo lil light skinned ass”. At the point mi mouth just dropped.. I went off. 
  ‘really hoe um sitting up here trying tell you what your ass na did wrong and telling you that I still know you mess round with this hoe. And you in her bedroom…well thet that tells it all….bye hoe have a nice day…I can’t even say nun else.” 
  When I was hanging up I could hear him say “aye wait it’s not like that.” At this point I just feel weird…I can’t describe how I feel….i just laid in bed and looked at the ceiling for a couple of hours. Then I got a text. It was from keyone but the bitt texted me from his phone this time. Like that was any better. But it said this:  
  Keyone: Kay please reply to this…you have to heard me out. 
  Me: ite go for it. Talk! 
  Keyone: well to be honest I’m speechless. I really don’t have anything to say. 
  Me: ohh okae that’s what I thought. Well what you gone say??/ I’m sorry? 
  Keyone: to be real no…cause I know I always say that and that I might not really mean it and that if I say it then I would be wasting my time cause you won’t believe me and I wouldn’t really mean what I said. 
  Me: ohh okae then bye. 
  Keyone: goodnight kay 
  ME: wateva..tell yo bitch have a good night nd don’t kall me kay. 
  KEyone: ok nite! 
  After I got off the phone with his cheating ass I jus continued to lay there…not thinking about anything..not crying or not even mad. I was just sitting there in a daze. But then the tought of “How could all of this happen to me popped in my head”. It felt like when something bad happens to you it. All happens at one danq time.. I was so confused that I didn’t know what to do. I felt like I needed to get out and go for a walk. So I got up put on some short and a tanktop. And put my long black hair in a pony tail. When I walked out the door and headed down the block I put my ear phones in my ear. So when I got a good ways from my house I noticed a figure behind me….when I glanced back it was a person and they was following me…. I took my ear phones out my ear and began to pick up my pace. Then they began to walk a little faster too. Finally I started to run and they started to run… I ran as fast as I could but they caught me. When they did I began to scream but they covered my mouth… I bite their hand and the person said “ouchhhh gahhhdamn kay” that’s when I knew that the person that was following me was Keyone. When I realized this I got real heated and just started punching and hitting him, not caring where or what I might punch.. he grabbed me, picked me up and kind of wrestled me to the ground….”wait kait stop aite..stop jus calm down. I’ll let you go if you stop punching me and screaming.” So I stopped. “what do you want asshole”,I yelled. “I want you to talk to me, I want this whole thing to be over and I want you jus forgive me.” “what the hell, you expect me to talk to you, hear you out, and forgive you.?” “yea” “Key you told me that you didn’t give a damn about my dead grandmother, you told me that you didn’t give a damn about me, and you beat the shit out of me for a stupid ass reason” “ okae that I know but Kay I can’t take this anymore..it’s eating me up, I can’t sleep or anything. “ohhhh so you’re doing this dumb shit because guilt is eating you up.” “that and I miss you, I miss laying beside you, I miss talking on the phone with you and, well I miss us okae…and I would do anything right about now to get it all back, I’ll do anything right now to make it all better.” “ohh sooo you wana make it all better key…huh … is that what you want?” “yea…that’s what I want Kaitlin” “well uma tell you how you can make it better Keyone…” “how?” “go jump in front of a damn car and leave me alone cause we ain’t gone ever get back to the way we were dude…neva and I saw that when instead of trying to apologize and make it BETTER you go and lay up wit your ex Hoe!!” “ Kaitlin it wasn’t even like that okae…she found out who I was talking to and she said all that dumb shit…we were never back together, we didn’t fukk or anything. I was over there for advice about you.” “ohhh really, that’s why you were over there.” “yeah!!! That and because I’m frends with her bro. that’s how we hooked up when we was together. I promise on everything I love I wasn’t over there for any other purposes>” “well why you was on her phone?” “ kay that wasn’t even her damn phone. That was Jeremiah’s phone. Like I said when she found out I was calling you she started saying all that shit. And you wanna know why I used Jeremiah’s phone well it was because I knew you wasn’t going to answer if I called from my phone. See I really wanted to talked to you and I was willing to go to hell and back to do so. Soo that’s how I feel.” “ohh sooo you willing to go to hell and back to make it right…well looks like you gone have to do that literally before I even consider taking your lying ass back” “really Kait” “yes really Keyone”.  
  After the lil boring ass convo I started to get up and when I did get up I looked at Keyone and he was crying..like literally had tears rolling down his face.. he looked up at me and said, “soo that’s it….we through?:” I said, “I guess so, I can’t take your ways and how you react to certain things…I just can’t” when I said that I began to walk off back towards the direction of my house, when he ran back up behind me and turned me towards him. “uma still love you though” “well let that be soo then, I wish I can say the same about you dude.:” I turned and walked off again, all the way back to my house where I ran upstairs and went up to my room to think! I stared at myself in the mirror…looking at my reflection, staring at how one event can change my life…I stood there, alone, puzzled, and confused. Until finally I started crying.. shaking, and wondering how in hell could a 15 year old child have so much drama in her life. This was just too much for me. I wanted to started out fresh. Beginning with a different school. I made it in my mind that after the next week of school was over that I was going to transfer to Collins High. Maybe my life would be better there.  
  My week was kind of jammed packed with a lot of shit. I had practices. I had to study. I had to go shopping for the funeral, I had to attend the funeral,and on top of that I had to deal with Nichole’s nightmares, my mama tears, and Keyone stupid ass ways. I didn’t know if I could last that much longer, but I did. I made the best out of everything. I even handled the Lanish situation. See this is what happened: 
  So I’m coming for Algebra l and heading to gym and Keyone meets me outside of the gym still trying to make me talk to him. I ignored him and went inside the gym and that’s When  Nisha saw Keyone following up behind me so she walked over and said Damn Kaitlin you know you always got him behind you, you must have opened your legs for him or some ole nasty man stealing hoe. Keyoen saw the look in my eyes and saw that I had snapped but before he could grabb me I went over to where she had walked off to and grabbed that slut by her hair. I punched her in the face about five time before she blacked out, the when she did blank out I beat her head up against the floor until it started bleeding. Keyone ran over to where I was and pulled me off of her but I tried the best I could to get back over to where she was. I kicked and screamed so much that Keyone had to pinn me down to the gym floor. Then his homeboy Joshua came over and Keyone told him to hold me down until he call the ambulance and the principle and shit. I was still trying to get to her when everyone came. Finally, they came and put Nisha in the ambulance and all the polices left and stuff but my mom still had to come and fill out papers and stuff. But when Joshua finally let me go I stormed out of the gym and walked right up on Keyone. I was short compared to him so he looked down at me, I thought he was fina try to get back with me but he said “ your mama here and she mad as hell, well she not mad but she’s crying like crazy, she said that she can’t take all this mess with you anymore. I paused then looked back up at Keyone and said, “I know she can’t that’s why I’m transferring, maybe it’ll be better at Collins.” “ wait what the hell did you just say?” “isaid I’m transferring, I can’t take being here anymore.”  
  After that I walked off towards the office where I met my mom and we left.  
   
   
   
   
   Publication Date: February 27th 2012 https://www.bookrix.com/-neshiap