text: Kerri  Morgan Fools luck Luck 
   
   
   Chapter 1 - Its only the beginning 
     
   Getting money wasn't nothing for me , well getting money wasn't nothing for anybody these days. Shit is easy labor out here. Everybody popping this and popping that , shit bitches is even sharing their pussy for some bread. I ain't gonna knock y'all hustle , get that Thot money. Before I talk my shit let me not be rude. My name is Bianca , Bianca Taylor to be clear . With my nice curly hair , butter pecan skin , body shaped like a Coca Cola bottle I never had a hard time getting what I wanted. Right now I'm working for some bumass agency , I make like 700 a week . That shit really not enough for me . Deadass. Shit be breaking me down because all my bitches walk around with Chanel this and I'm still shopping at forever 21 . Fuck it though. My girls was all different though , you got Lena , jasmine , Steph and Lisa . See Lena was this brown skin chick , little shaped , quiet little mouse , her man wasn't shit but she didn't know any better, he cheated but her ass was up . Jasmine that bitch always had the latest gear, bitch we fucking straight ballers. Jasmine glowed the fuck up y'all , bitch was a ugly duckling , she got some ass shots , titties done too , it complements her though . Jasmine was like 5'10 light skin with straight weave , her smile lit up a room though i guess that's how she got her money. Steph was my right hand though my go to. Steph was a skinny light skin , pretty eyes joint , she was fucking with some ain't shit nigga that got locked up , but Steph ain't stupid she do her thing out here. When he got out he was whopping Steph ass . That's another story though ! Now Lisa was the bitch you wanted to be next to , Lisa was some thick ass joint , bitch family was rich as fuck and she always had some new wheels and new shit. We was just that crew that nobody could get enough of . 
   Back to me though , I started fucking with some dude name Johnny , Johnny was some brown skin ,skinny (you know what they say about skinny niggas) fucking fly and educated man ! I thought Johnny fucking fell from the sky y'all . Everything about him was amazing . When I talk to him I got moist . It's funny though because they way we met you would of never thought we would still be going for all these years . I seen Johnny in sin city , yeah me and my bitches wanted some eats plus it was amateur night . Everybody was going to be their anyways , we always like showing out . Johnny walked in with his people's, his friends were fine but I saw him as soon as they walked in because they stopped in the front to get a table . Johnny pinky ring was shinning and shit. I glanced at him and bit my lips , I really wanted to bite his , those shit was big and juicy and not ashy . You these niggas don't know what chapstick is anymore ! But back to Johnny fine ass , I tapped Lisa "bitch look at that nigga over their with the all black " , Lena replied bitch he is fire , I then gave Lena a look like damn bitch can I run down on him first . Shit thirsty ass bitches. They was talking to the sin city waitress princess . So y'all know what the fuck I did , I text princess ass . My text stated , " bring those niggas over here " . She walked them to our table and was like y'all gotta get up because they buying bottles . Which was apart of the plan ! So me and the girls was arguing with them like y'all bums anyways , come here before 11 ass niggas to get buy one and get one for free ass niggas. I hate y'all . Johnny kept looking at my ass . I walked up to Johnny ,and said "what the fuck you looking at" ,Johnny was like yo won't y'all come back y'all making a show for what , y'all know y'all want s drink anyways . I just thought the nigga was too smooth . He was right we did want a drink and what we did sat our asses on the couch . Everybody was talking to Johnny friends I was being anti , I just stayed in my phone . Johnny moved his chair close to me , he said " why you so quiet when you have so much to say ", I said because I'm chilling , he then said " here drink some henny", I looked at him like I don't drink henny . He then gave me the look like bitch you gonna drink it tonight. What I did I drank henny for the first damn time . To top it off these niggas had a bottle parade in sin , all the wack strippers was around us . Niggas popped like 12 bottles in sin ,I'm like y'all showing the fuck off ! Everybody was getting dances but Johnny , this nigga was just too cool . He was in his phone too , I kept thinking he must got a bitch at home .You could tell he didn't like the attention . Let me fast forward though ! So we leaving sin , Johnny crew took my girls home , Johnny took me with him . I ended up in Yonkers in johnnys house , I ain't never see no house like this in my life . It was cars in the driveway, his house was huge. So I had to play it off like I seen this before . Bitch I was jumping out my panties . He walked me to his room , gave me a t-shirt and some boxers , plus a tooth brush . I was puzzled like this nigga think my breath stink or something . I got undressed in the bathroom and brushed my teeth. When I came back Johnny was on the phone in this group with his friends . So I text our group and ask what everybody was doing and we was all in one of his friends house . We too much alike . I lye there and said to him , Johnny don't you try nothing , because I will fuck you up. Johnny was like man if you don't lay down and shut the fuck up . I did what the fuck I was told to do . I lay on my side he placed his arms around me , his dick was on my butt , and he kissed me on my neck. In my mind I was like bitch it's about to go down . Then I kept thinking don't be a hoe , don't give it up on the first night ! Don't do it sis don't ! But he kiss me on my neck and fell asleep . I turned around like what the fuck is he gay . Johnny turned over grabbed my arm and made me rub his hair , I was so confused . Then he rubbed my butt to sleep . When I woke up it felt like I had the best sleep in my life , I was comfortable and he was touching me in the right places. The only weird shit was Johnny kept rubbing my nipples. Ever since then I been fucking with Johnny , he about me and his money . Sometimes it's to good to be true . 
   After day dreaming how I met my future husband my shit was ruined when I got a call from Lena . 
   Bitch - said Lena  Hey Lena - I said , what's going on ?  Bianca Steph man , dj fucked Steph up again , this bitch eye is black and her ribs is broke . Bitch in the er talking about she fell down the steps. That's what she said when she called me . I rolled my eyes , in my head this is a every other week thing with this nigga , dj is bitch made y'all !  So wassup you want me to come scoop you so we can go to the hospital , she just gotta come stay with me and Johnny for a little  Yeah bitch I'm at T house . Lena said 
   I then walked to my car ( oh yeah y'all Johnny brought a bitch alittle black 3 series bmw to get around ) . As I was driving to T house , I called Johnny . But Johnny being Johnny he didn't pick up , so I shot him a text , " babe I'm On my way to ya friend T house to pick Lena up , fucking dj fucked Steph up again , and no I'm gonna call your friend my bitch is just in the er . Dinner will be ready when you get home . Love you daddy . He text back like baby I'm working and I love you to . I rolled my eyes . His stupid ass I mumbled 
   Yo come down , I text Lena that 
   Lena got into the car . Bitch you got some new hair , heard you ma . I said to Lena . You know T like me in the new shit, Lena said 
   We blast some tunes on our to Montiefere er. 
   We get out the car , I see jasmine and Lisa waiting for us , we all shared kisses . 
   Walking to the back we see Steph parents , we like hey family . They was crying , I'm like y'all what's wrong . Ms smith said y'all didn't hear . Steph died a hour ago , they blows to her head made her bleed to her brain 
   Everything went in circles after that . 
   I fucking lost it 
   Losing a best friend wasn't what I was prepared for today . 
   End of chapter 1 
   
   
   
   Chapter 2 - Your Next 
     
   Baby you okay - Johnny asked , he just kept rubbing my hair and my back . I didn't respond. It just sucked I actually lost my best friend , to some herb ass nigga . The fact of it is that we told her ass to leave him . But you know you can't tell nobody what to do in their relationship. People do whatever the fuck they want to do anyways . I got off the bed , went to the bathroom . I ran the showered , slowly undressed myself .  Johnny followed behind me to the shower , he got undressed as well. My mind was g in the right place I just wanted to be held . I got in the shower , so did he but he jumped back . "Damn babe why you always have to have the water that hot"- Johnny snapped . Babe I like my water how I like , if you going to complain , go to the bathroom down stair - I replied . Johnny got in , pulled me close to him . His body on my body's just felt like heaven . He then started to run his finger through my hair , at this point my hair was dripping with water .johnny then looked at me , pulled my chin up to his . Baby I got you , don't worry about it. I couldn't hesitate , I cried like a big ass . I couldn't help it . Baby I don't know what to do , I'm hurting . Like what am I going to do pa - I cried . He looked at me , "your going continue to live your life , Bianca shit don't stop because a life is lost" . We shared a kiss after that , then another kiss . We began to kiss passionately . One kiss right after another . His lips taste so good . I licked his lips , he licked mine , our tongues began to slide in each other's mouths . With the humidity in the bathroom and us sharing these kissed , my pussy got real moist. Johnny started gripping my ass , rubbing up and down , circling it . He grabbed it , then slap it . Johnny then started kissing on my neck then his tongue went to my ear. MMMMMmm - i let out a soft moan . His dick began to poke my thigh . I knew what time it was . I cut the shower off , open the glass doors , and grabbed us some towels . Come on daddy - I said in a very sexual tone. Johnny didn't even wipe his self off , he was to busy watching my ass jiggle . I led Johnny to the bed , place the pillows behind his head . I gently kissed his lips . I love you daddy - I said to Johnny . I made my way down to his manhood . Little Johnny was very happy to see me . I then place him in my mouth . Up and down ,spitting gagging . Doing everything Johnny likes . I started to jerk while I sucked , up and down . Damn baby - Johnny said . Johnny couldn't take it anymore , he was about to bust . I saw his toes curl up . He pushed my head off real quick . Nah baby I want that wet pussy - Johnny said . I arched that ass up real high . Johnny spit on his hands and start rubbing my pussy back and fourth . God damn that shit felt good . I was biting my lip . Calling him everything in the book . Nigga made me cum before he even gave me the dick. After shaking like a stripper , Johnny then put his man hood inside me . Once he put the head in , I wanted to cream all over that shit. He started moving his waist round and round , back and fourth . Pussy was so wet it start to drip down my legs . Omg baby I'm bout to cum - I screamed . So Johnny being Johnny he went harder . As he was fucking me he started playing with my pussy . I came all on his dick , I start squeezing my pussy on his dick. That shit drove him insane . Johnny then jerked , then started going slower . Johnny always came inside me , he never cared . I hated that shit , it always threw my PH off . I went to go get him a rag , wiped his dick off . When I came back Johnny ask was knocked out . I cuddle right next to him . Fell sound asleep 
   Buzz ! Buzz ! Buzz  I look at my phone  It was Lena ass  Hello - I mumbled  Bitch wake up - Lena yelled  Bitch I'm tired - I yelled  Well we need to go make funeral arrangements for Steph , shit is so expensive bitch ,- Lena said  Listen Lena I ain't spending that much , Johnny want me to save up because we have shit to do . Bitch let me get up , I'll call you when I'm on my way to you .  I hung up . 
   Baby , I'm going to help with this funeral shit pa . Johnny ! Baby ! You heard me  This nigga was still sleep . I got you , took a shower , put my hair in a bun. When I got out the shower Johnny was up and on the phone as always.  Baby order me some food please - Johnny begged  I rolled my eyes . I know this nigga see me getting ready to go out . Niggas is so selfish. I called the Jamaican restaurant , orders Him some fried chicken , rice and peas and some veggies .  Babe I need your car , so just take the jeep or something , Johnny said  So I can't drive your car ? I asked  Hell no you not driving my Porsche , Johnny said  Nigga why you need my car then , the fuck? I questioned  I told you because I have to do something ,Johnny said  You so selfish , just bring my shit back with gas , I hate driving the jeep , that shit take to much gas daddy . I whined .  Well suck it up because you not taking my car , Johnny then got back on the phone .  I threw on a pair of spandex and a hoodie , and put on my stand smiths . As I'm doing my baby hairs Johnny comes and slap my ass and tells me to behave . This man drives me insane .  I love you - I screamed out  You better bitch - Johnny yelled back .  Walked back to the room and grabbed my bag , he left some money for me on the dressers .  See you later daddy , I left out our condo 
   "Have a good day ms Taylor ", said our door man . You too boo , I got you with some food tomorrow Larry . "Thank you so much ms Taylor ", Larry said 
   I hate driving this jeep rangler ! I thought to myself 
   I hop in the truck , and drove off . 
   Come down - I sent Lena a text . 
   Lena came down , she had on a track outfit , looking stupid . But that ass was poking . Her long hair complemented get frame . 
   Wassup bitch ? - I said  Ain't shit , bitch why t trying to go to Miami again. , these niggas don't know hero to sit their ass down , Lena said  Bitch I'm with anything , now where we going again - I said  We going to is cars funeral home - Lena said  I sucked my teeth and drove off 
   We arrived at this funeral home , her parents was there already . Jasmine was at work like always . 
   So we hearing what the fuck was taking place at this funeral and wake , bitch this shit is so stupid . Steph wouldn't want no shit like this man . But I didn't say nothing , this her parents doing . I was just ready to get out of there . Go home and cook. This shit wasn't for me . Her parents needed 500 from the 3 of us which was 1500. I was just shock my head and said iight . 
   Lena we out - I said 
   Lena followed 
   We drove to her house in silence , we still fucked up since our bitch died . Now we talking about her funeral. What type of shit is that ? For real though . 
   I'll call you later boo - Lena said  Alright sexy face - I said 
   Hey baby , I'm heading home , I know your at work . Can't wait to see you later daddy. Tonight I'm making steak mash and some veggies . I sent a text to Johnny 
   Walking into my condo was like a breath of fresh air . I walked out to the outside we had a seating area there , just kicked my feet up and just chilled . Before I knew it I dozed off . By time I woke up it was 11 . My ass didn't cook shit. I ordered some dominoes . 
   Johnny keys hit the door .  I grew with excitement ! 
   Hi daddy - I said  Wats up baby - Johnny said  He came and grabbed a pizza  Babe your dirty ass hands - I said  Shut up - Johnny said 
   So babe , I saw dj. I gave him some bail money , you know that's my mans . I can't let him go down like that 
   First of all how you going to give some nigga bail money that killed my friend . You so fucking stupid . Get off of me . I yelled at Johnny 
   What the fuck you yelling for , you better calm the fuck down , and it's my money - Johnny said 
   Whatever , I'm going to bed , dumb add - I said 
   Johnny stayed in the living room . I heard the tv come on. 
   I rolled over and went to sleep . 
   Few hours later I felt Johnny in the bed , he grabbed me close to him then we went to sleep. 
   I woke up to yelling , I looked over like what the fuck is going on . 
   This nigga dj done broke into our crib. 
   Johnny and dj going blow for blow . I ran out the room pressed the panic button , I then ran in the closet and grabbed Johnny pistol . 
   First back the fuck up - I said to dj  Hell no I'm not going no where bitch - dj said  Johnny said down baby , I'll deal with you in a few . Dj you got until 3 to get the fuck out ! 1 , 2 . Dj kicked the gun out my hand . Punched me to the floor . Blood leaking from my nose , I crawled and hit him with the lamp . Dj laying there in his own pool of blood , just laying there . 
   The cops done broke down the door and put dj in handcuffs . 
   Johnny had a bloody lip and a few broke ribs , my nose was just swollen . 
   Fucking johnny had it out for us 
   Bianca watch your back bitch , don't believe Johnny , just like step your next . 
   I looked at Johnny , baby what is he talking about. - I asked  Nothing baby he's bugging - Johnny said 
   His last words fucked me up . What the fuck did dj mean . Why would I be next . What the fuck is going on ? 
     
   
   
   
   Chapter - Lisa 
     
   Johnny this Johnny that , fuck Johnny - Lisa yelled . I hate him . Sexy bastard , I wish I would of got him when I first seen him. I wonder if they would find out if I killed Steph . Fuck that bitch anyways , she was finding out to much information about me anyways . See if I kill Bianca's then Johnny would be all mine . FUCK ! SHIT - Lisa yelled . Oh man I don't know what's wrong with me , these voices in my head are just talking to much . Lisa then paced back and fourth in her apartment . What am I going to do ? Lisa questioned . Steph found out on Friday that I took meds, she was going to tell everybody , then I told her I loved Johnny . I had pictures of Johnny that she found in my room . Every time Johnny came around I day dreamed about us on a island drinking and him looking at me like he looks at Bianca. But that would never happen . 
   I was trying to stir up some shit . Fuck it I need shit to go my way . I thought dj was going to kill them because I told his ass Bianca and Johnny set his ass up . I told his ass they framed him , but Bianca being all tough I thought her ass was alone . She knock his ass with the lamp . Johnny always work , ugh I love me a working man . Johnny got until the funeral to make his mind up , I know he want me bad . I just know he won't leave Bianca . That bitch was like his world , I don't know why . Bitch ain't got shit , I hate her ass . I don't why I was her friend for this long man . Maybe bc my brain told me Johnny was coming . Johnny was her night and shinning armor ! But whatever I wanted him . I'll do anything in my power to get him . Johnny could set me out . Shit . I got money and all but I want his money . Most of all I just want him . 
   I started thinking about the night I killed Steph , I know it's fuck up but it happened so think what the fuck yall want . 
   I broke into that bitch house , I knew dj wasn't there . His ass be to busy fucking around . I shattered the front glass , turned the door knob and walked in . I put on dj sweater , that I saw laying on the couch . Walked straight to her room , grabbed her lamp off her night stand ,started hitting her right in the head with that shit . I kept hearing her skull crack . That shit made me horny . Seeing all the blood , filled me with excitement . That bitch keep jumping , i guess it was her nerves . By the time I stopped her head was smashed like that last piece of bread . Bye Steph . 
   Walked out that house like I didn't know what the fuck happened . 
   I then called the cops .  "911 omg help I hear a women screaming and she's always getting beat by her partner , help her " I seen him run out the house with his sweater in his hand . 
   Hung that phone up and went on with my business . 
   
   
   
   Chapter 4 - Turning Point 
     
   For some odd reason , I haven't heard from Lisa . Every time I called her she was some form of busy . Fuck it , I tried . I called the girls to set up a brunch . Steph wake was tomorrow .  I put on my jeans , had to make sure my booty was looking nice , a little crop sweater that hanged off my shoulders and some thigh high boots . Grabbed my keys , and walked out my crib . I haven't seen Johnny since this morning , he's always at work . We need a vacation or something soon . I shot him a text " hey daddy , I'm On my way to brunch with the thots , so yeah I'll be home when you get home pa , love you" . 
   So I pulled up to this little joint in dyckman . It had hookah and frozen drinks , that's all I cared about anyways . I found parking for once , shit it ain't never no parking in dyckman. 
   So I get out my car , walking to the spot . I seen the hostess. " hi how are you do have any reservations", ask the hostess . Yes my girls have a table for 3 inside , I replied . Okay so walk inside and find your table , she moved aside. I then walked in and saw jasmine wave her hand .  Hey y'all - I shouted  They both waved . Eww y'all don't have to give me that shady ass wave - I said  Bitch shut up - Lena said  Nah bitch on the real , have you heard from Lisa asked jasmine  I haven't heard from her , every time I call her ass she fake blow me off - I said  Well y'all know I never liked the bitch anyways - Lena said  Lena you always ready to fight - I said , then burst out to a laugh  The waiter came over , we all ordered some big ass frozen drinks . By the time Johnny got home I'll be laying in the bed but ass naked waiting for him . I thought to myself . The place was nice , little low key and the music was popping . I danced alittle in my seat . After I started drinking alittle , I started feeling that shit. 
   We shared more conversation . We talked about the wake and funeral tomorrow . It felt weird because it felt like something was suppose to happen . 
   I felt vibration , I looked at my phone and it a message from Lisa stupid ass. Hey i was wondering if I could get Johnny number , I really have to ask him something. I looked at the phone like this bitch is bugging . Whatever you have to ask him , you could run it threw me i said . Whatever bitch she replied back . I showed the girls . They laugh out loud. 
   We got the check , exchange kisses on the cheek and departed ways 
   I got home around 12 . Put the keys in my door and guess who the fuck was in my house Johnny and Lisa. 
   Fuck is you doing here - I asked Lisa  Well hi babe , what's wrong - Johnny asked  Babe this bitch asked for her number - I said . So why you here Lisa ? I asked as I was taking off my shoes  Well I was waiting to bring y'all to together , to let you know that I'm inlove with Johnny . Me and Johnny looked at each other and laughed .  Baby this bitch is drunk - I said  Babe that's your friend , I'm chilling - Johnny said  Bitch you heard what the fuck I said , and Johnny is going to be with me because I said so . See this is the problem with y'all bitches y'all don't know when y'all time is up . -Lisa said  Bitch if you don't get the fuck out my house with this bullshit, Lisa you going to make me fuck you up bitch , I came home to fuck my man not deal with your craziness .- I said  Johnny grabbed his henny out the cabinet.  Babe pour me a cup to before I fuck this bitch up - I said  So y'all think I'm playing huh ? Y'all yhink I'm playing . Johnny I love you . Why you can't be with me. - cried for Lisa Listen Lisa I never even gave you a idea I wanted to fuck with you , are you crazy . Listen you know what the fuck I'm dealing with , bitch don't act crazy - said Johnny . Now get your shoes and get the fuck out bitch - he yelled  Thanks daddy - I said  Okay so y'all think I'm playing huh ! - Lisa said 
   Lisa started pacing back and fourth . Me and Johnny looked at each other . Like what the fuck is going on . I pushed the panic bottom under the counter top . Hopefully the security come as soon as possible. Lisa looked at me . 
   Bitch I got something for you 
   Lisa pulled out a fucking gun 
   
   
   
   Chapter 5 - Lisa Love 
     
   Bitch is you stupid - I asked Lisa  Nah babe this bitch gotta be delusional- Johnny said  No y'all thought I was fucking around ! And I'm not playing with y'all ! Now Johnny you get over here , Bianca get your dumb ass over here . - Lisa said  I looked at Johnny for answers , but we were both puzzled about what the fuck was taking place . Felt like we was in some movie , like some straight paid and full shit.  So now Johnny is going to leave with me , and you will not follow bitch ! - Lisa said  Okay Lisa , you the one with the gun bitch , do your thing boo- I said  Hell no , bitch I ain't going no where with you - johnny said  Lisa laughed , then she shot into the wall . Me and Johnny got low .  Babe go with her ! Just to pa, I'll get you back - I cried . Yeah listen to your little dog , and walk your ass on . I will shoot this bitch. - Lisa said  Lisa I thought we was friends , why are you doing this , you really going to throw away our 10 years of friendship , over you not taking your meds . Yeah bitch Steph told us . But that's not the point . Like you really think my man is yours - I said to Lisa  Lisa walked over to me and hit me in the face with the gun . I'm so tired of getting hit , I thought to myself. I dropped so hard to the floor . Lip busted , it was blood everywhere . Johnny tried to run to me but Lisa let off another shot . In my mind I'm like where the fuck is the security!  Bianca I love you - Johnny said  Nigga you love me shut up . You know what Imma do, Lisa laughed . Watch this  Listen pushed Johnny to the couch . She tried to kiss on him , every time she kissed him he moved his head , until she put the gun to his head . Nigga you gon kiss me - Lisa yelled .  You one sick bitch - I yelled  She ripped Johnny clothes off .  Now get up bitch - said Lisa Walk over there to your bitch . Slap her ! - Lisa said  Nah I ain't doing that - Johnny said  Lisa ran over and hit me again with her gun , this time I had a cut on my eye .  Alright bitch ! What the fuck ! Hit me , stop hurting her - Johnny yelled.  He slapped me . I cried so loud .  Baby I'm sorry , I love you - Johnny said  Now put your dick in her mouth . Now Johnny ! - Lisa said  Lisa please stop , I can't ! - Johnny begged  Lisa lit her cigarette. Gave it a couple of puffs .  So you not going to put it in her mouth ? Lisa questioned  Johnny didn't respond . Lisa over and burned me in the face with her cigarette. I let out another cry . Johnny place my head in position . And insert in my mouth . I began to cry .  Baby don't - Johnny said . Bianca we going to be alright , let's just do as she says .  I began to suck . Lisa sat on the couch and started to play with herself . Me and Johnny looked over and more tears came out my eyes.  Go head Bianca take off your clothes - Lisa said  Why ? - I asked  Bitch if you don't do as I say , I will cut a finger off - Lisa said  I took of my clothes . Me and Johnny was there naked .  Now take the remote and stick it inside her ! Now ! - Lisa yelled  Johnny let out a tear. I begs to cry so loud . Johnny got the remote and placed me on the counter .  I'm so sorry baby - Johnny cried  Johnny insert the remote on top of my pussy. I cried . Johnny please - I yelled  Johnny please what bitch - Lisa said . Now change channels with that pussy ! Lisa yelled  Johnny open my legs , he got to my lips and vomit . Johnny was so sick . He could dare hurt me .  Baby it's okay baby - I cried  I can't do this shit Lisa ! - Johnny cried  Fuck this shit ! Lisa grabbed the remote and tried to open my legs ! We was fighting ! Until I felt a sharp pain in my stomach . My remote was half way up my pussy. Blood was everywhere . Before you know it I black out .  You bitch - Johnny yelled  Johnny choked Lisa so hard she black out .  HELP ! Somebody ! - Johnny yelled .  The neighbors came out and called the cops . Mind you Johnny was still ass naked The cops then locked her up . 
   Beep .... Beep ... Beep . I kept hearing that nose . I was in so much pain . My vision was blurred. I opened my eyes . I seen Johnny , jasmine and Lena . They was crying . 
   What y'all crying for , I ain't dead . And is this bitch dead ! - I asked  It's taken care of baby just rest - Johnny said  I can't believe this happened to you , I wish that bitch would come out . Imma cut her ass - Lena said  Baby girl you going to be good - jasmine said 
   The doctors walked in .  Good evening ms Taylor , we happy you made it out , you lost a lot of blood . But we need everybody but you partner to step out .  Everybody walked out  Ms Taylor I have some bad news for you . We had to take a part of your vagina out . So there's a chance you won't be able to have children .  The tears began to roll down my face .  Ms Taylor we are going to work with you , it will be a lot of expensive treatment .  We will do whatever it takes - said Johnny  Ms Taylor do you have any questions  I shook my head , no   I can't believe this shit was happened to me , like why me . One of my best friends tried to kill me . Why ? Why are bitches so mean ! 
   Baby I'm going to be by your side no matter what , it's going to be alright - Johnny said 
   My life flashed before me ... 
     
   
   
   
   Chapter 6 - funeral 
     
   Steph wake and funeral was amazing . I cried like a baby . It was a beautiful service . I was just all fucked up from getting fucked with a remote . Jasmine really was keeping her distance as well . It was Lena and I riding out I guess . Lena told me that jasmine said " to many bad things is happening , Imma stay away for a while ". I looked at Lena like bitch are you serious , things appen everyday . As I'm walking out the church there's a detective standing outside . Ms Taylor may I speak to you . Asked the detective .  "Who are you and what do you want ?" asked Johnny  My name is detective Wilson , and in investigating your friend Stephane Johnson death . For starters I will be informing you , that dj didn't do it . That's for one. But I will tell you we are looking at your long time friend Lisa . Now ms Taylor how long have you known Lisa ?  About 10 years - I answered  And how was y'all relationship ? - Wilson questioned  We were like sisters . I paused . We were each other rock. Like we couldn't do anything without each other . A tear role down my face . Shit is hard now . Lisa never showed any form of jealousy , she was always supportive. - I stated  For starters ms Taylor , Lisa is sick . Lisa suffers from a bad case of personality disorder and she is bipolar . So she is very dangerous if she doesn't take her meds . We deeply sorry for what happened to you . If there's anything you can think of , here's my card . Call me anytime - dect Wilson said Babe I just want to go home - I said to Johnny  He grabbed my hand and we walked to the car. Driving back to our place , all Johnny talked about was staying home , taking vacations and being with me. Then I was thinking about what we did wrong with the Lisa situation. Truth be told I was really thinking about how I got fucked by a remote. I wonder if it would feel weird having sex now . Doctor never said not to . But wonder if I'm not able to give Johnny kids. So much was going threw my head. I just needed my bed , some food and my man. 
   Walking into the house seeing blood all over made me feel gross . I took my clothes off , put my hair up and got to cleaning . Johnny lazy ass was just laying down watching tv ,until that fucking phone rang. I looked over to see what the fuck was so funny , his stupid ass. I cleaned the kitchen , living room , bathrooms and our bed room. Only thing on my mind was a shower.  What are you cooking - Johnny asked  Cooking ? You didn't see me just clean this house , bitch cook , you better be getting take out - I yelled  I heard him suck his teeth. Fuck was he sucking his teeth for . Stupid ass  I was in the shower for a while , shit felt like everything . Walking to our bed room I heard the television. Of course it was Johnny ass watching stupid ass ESPN .  You just don't get enough right - I asked .  He never responded . Took off my towel , placed the towel behind the door . I then started to put on lotion .  Babe ? - I questioned  Yeah - Johnny said  Can you tell me what's different with my vagina , like look inside for me - I asked  Iight lay down - Johnny said  See this is why I love this man , I'll tell him i want him to look somewhere weird his ass did it . I spread my legs open , he looked around , open my lips and just smiled.  What's funny ? - I asked  Ain't shit wrong with you pussy , I know it's wet - Johnny said  He gave me a look like he was ready to go . Johnnys manhood stood up as he lowered his boxers . He wasted no time . By time time I could count to 3 he was inside already . I can't lie it felt like I was a Virgin all over again . He kissed all over me  Your so wet - he whispered  I thought to myself yeah nigga I know ! Sweet pussy Bianca . It just felt so good and refreshing , I guess getting some of your vagina taking out wasn't so bad at all.  He then placed me on my stomach , gripping my waist , I started rolling my hips , going in circles . I then threw my ass back . Then it was game over . He and I both came at the same time . We laid down . I couldn't even get up to get a rag . Shit a bitch was tired . Johnny got up and got us both rags . We cleaned then , then was sound asleep . Just being beside him made everything feel unreal . I always thought if I would be the right women for him . You never know what someone is doing because you'll be blinded by how much you love a person . 
   It was morning time , time for my ass to get back to work. As I prepared for work , Johnny was still sleeping . I wanted to sleep in so bed , but I got a phone call.  Bianca can you please come in , I need help with these invoices . - said my stinking ass boss My sleeping in dreams was cut short I'll be right in - I said in so much sarcasm  I haven't heard from jasmine and Lena .  You know everybody need there time alone I guess . 
   
   
   
   Chapter 7 - Dont Play Fool 
    Walking to work I was thinking about a lot 
   I always thought would life would be like without the things I was going through. You know what fucked me up dealing with this Johnny shit. We tend to put our all into our relationships all the time and not take time out to see what we want. I hated that shit. That was my downfall. Why do women always put the nigga feelings before hers? Like wtf be on our minds man. 
   I walked into work with the sad face.  I miss the thought of being held at night and just vibing with my nigga. Most of all I missed my bitches, ever since that bull shit been happening everybody went their separate ways. Shit I don’t blame them, that shit that went down with me and Johnny was wack as fuck. Then my bitch dying, lord that shit was wack. Speaking of that I need to go see her grave site 
   My boss was just talking all damn day; this bitch really need some dick or I need to hit the lotto because she just talking to damn much. I got my work done and was ready to be the fuck out. I dint even take a lunch break, because I was working so damn hard. 
   I finally finished my work at 6pm on the dot. Traffic was killing me I just wanted to lay down. I call Johnny but he didn’t pick up as always. That wasn’t nothing new. (rolls fucking eyes). I can’t lie, shit has been changing for the worst, but I just thought that he’s bored, but fuck it. That’s men, truthfully men never know wtf they want. You could give them a red carpet and some A1 pussy and some bomb d.com head.  Niggas just be ungrateful these days but look at us we love them right? 
   I turn up the radio, because I was falling asleep. I’m scrolling through my phone just looking and I see some wack shit. Why Johnny ass flirting with every bitch on Instagram, like bruh, grow up! aren’t you supposed to be in love. I sent his ass a text “you a corn ball, stop playing with me, when you get home imma fuck you up” I politely sent him a screen shot of the wack shit he was doing. Yall guess what? the nigga replies with a LOL. That was it! I drove so fast home. I got myself ready for work, I cooked something really quick. As I was watching some movies, Johnny walks in. 
   First he tries to kiss me, I mushed him. Why is this nigga acting like were good, like he wasn’t just embarrassing me? 
   So you think shit is funny, you want me to do you how you do me – I yelled 
   Do what? – said Johnny 
   Now you want to act stupid, bitch I just showed wtf you were doing, can you stop playing with me – I said 
   Why you take this social media shit so serious? – he laughed 
   Why I take it serious? why because your embarrassing me and you giving these bitches a reason to feel as if they have a chance with you, it shouldn’t even be like that. I shouldn’t be feeling this way. – I cried 
   Nobody knows they don’t have a chance with me - Johnny said so nonchalantly 
   I just walked away, and ran my shower. Truth to be told he would never understand where I’m coming from because in his eyes he’s not doing anything wrong. I undressed, grabbed my towel and went into the shower. Johnny being Johnny, he tries to shower with me, I told him no its none of that. I quickly washed up and he left the house as always. His ass always running away for some shit he caused. How can you create an issue and not solve it? Typically, nigga shit. I was in need of an ear. I gave in and called Lena. 
   Hello – Lena said 
   Hey girl how you been? I miss you, you okay? – I asked 
   Yeah, I got something too tell you. I’m sorry I been distant, I felt we needed to get our shit together. I feel so bad because you know, you needed us and we left you. We really all we got -Lena said 
   I started to cry 
   The phone got silent 
   Talk to me – Lena said 
   Bitch I can’t with this nigga Johnny no more, he thinks everything is okay and I cry all the time, I’m just not in the mood for this love shit, he doesn’t see how much his actions has caused me to not be happy with anything that’s been going on. 
   Well you know Johnny is a god man but you need to put your happiness first, I know he loves you. But Johnny Is Johnny, he’s not going to change unless he wants to. – said Lena 
   I cried loudly 
   I know man, I just love him and I would hate to have to leave his ass – I said 
   Well you have to do what you have to do, wait come get me, let’s go get a drink you don’t need to be alone- Lena said 
   Alright, imma throw something on right now, I’ll call you when I’m outside – I said 
   We both hanged up 
     
   I then threw on some Nike spandex, a hoodie and some prestos. I went outside to see that Johnny took my car, so then I walked back in the house grabbed his keys and drove off. He’s going to be so mad, oh well, sis will be alright! You hear me? 
   I got in the car, started it and drove off.  I sent a text to Lena “come down”. Even though this bitch took 10 minutes to come down, I was happy to even be outside, I got a piece of mind. We then went to a bar on bond street. It was some event going on, and it was happy hour all day. We both looked at each other and was like yeah we bout to get tore. 
   My phone rings. 
   RING, RING, RING 
   I looked down at the phone, and its Johnny 
   Where you at? he asked 
   I’m out with Lena, wassup? I asked 
   Oh iight, later 
   He hung up. 
   Fuck he wanted? – Lena asked 
   Bitch he just want to be nosey, regular Johnny shit 
   We Walked in the spot, the music was good, it wasn’t that packed. We found a spot next to the bar. We then order two shots of patron and 2 frozen margaritas’. We began talking about everything, we caught u on every little thing and even reminisced about Steph. We had some tears, but it felt good talking to my bitch, we haven’t caught up in the longest. 
   I feel someone tap me on the shoulder. I look over and its jasmine. 
   I jumped and cried! 
   BITCH!!!!! WTF! WHERE YOU BEEN? 
   We just group hugged. 
   Give me 3 shots! – jasmine yelled 
   Bitch, let me tell you, I started fucking with some guy, I been doing great. he has been helping me open u my clothing store and investing into the right shit for me. The only thing is that he has a wife yall. 
   We gave her that look 
   Fuck you mean home wrecker – I said 
   We bust out laughing 
   Nah seriously, what you mean? – Lena said 
   Bitch he got a wife, a full wife – jasmine said 
   GTFOH – I said 
   Well bitch as long as he investing in your future, do your thing – Lena said 
   Well take a shot to that – I said 
   This was our 5th shot of patron 
   I was a little nice, hey girls let head home before we can’t get home. 
   Yeah let’s go – Lena said 
   Lena got in my car, jasmine got in hers, we blew the horn and went our separate ways 
   It was good seeing yall, I said 
   Yeah we need to get it together and come together again – Lena said 
   We just listened to some music on our ride back to Lena house. 
   Lena got out, and said I love you girl, text me when you get home. 
   Alright boo 
     
   I drive into my drive way, I seen my car, aww fuck this nigga is home 
   I walked into the house, Johnny sitting there with his two friends. I said hello and he smacked me on the ass and I slapped his ass in the face. Little dumbass. 
   Bitch don’t play with me – he yelled 
   Yeah right – I said 
   I then walked into my bathroom, showered a little and cuddled in the bed with my 80 pillows. 
   Johnny comes in the room; I could smell the alcohol on him. 
   I kept on watching tv. 
   His ass rubs on my butt 
   What Johnny? – I said 
   STFU – he said 
   He started kissing me and out of nowhere I was naked, with a snap of a finger. Damn this nigga was quick as hell. Before you know it I was griping the sheets. He was so rough today; it was so weird but it was good. About time he tares this pussy up. He then gripped and slapped my ass. He then started playing with my pussy from the back. Lord! He ached my back lower and spread my ass cheeks like they were butter. He went faster, slower, circle. You name it, he was rocking this boat. He then came, and laid down for a few. 
   The sex was great and all but he still disrespected me. Now he think everything is all good because I give the kitty up. Bitch snap out of it, I said to myself. 
   You know I love you right – says every nigga that does some fucked u shit. 
   Yeah I know - I said 
   That shit aint about nothing, them bitches don’t mean nothing to me – Johnny said 
   Johnny, I hear you but if the shoe was on the other foot I would have been by myself – I said 
   Yeah you would because you not going to disrespect me. Or have me looking dumb in these streets – Johnny said 
   Wait a minute, you have me looking dumb, you know that right.  – I said 
   Nah you don’t look dumb – he said 
   Johnny bye – I said 
   Fuck you mean bye – Johnny yelled 
   Get the fuck out – I yelled back 
   Bitch this is my house – Johnny said 
   Bitch idc, go to them little bitches on Instagram house – I said 
   Alright I will – he said 
   I ran back in that room so fast and knock the fuck out of him. He then grabbed me by my neck, I couldn’t breathe. I then knocked the lam over. His friends came in the room to stop him. 
   Chill bro you bugging – his friend mike said 
   Fuck you bitch – Johnny said 
   Fuck your mother bitch – I said 
   Johnny jumped so fast, and began to choke me again. I cried this time, I had no more fight in me. 
   I’m not going anywhere – Johnny said 
   GET OUT!!!! – I yelled 
   His friends then took him out, the house. 
   After that I didn’t see Johnny for a whole week, the nigga hasn’t called me or even gotten clothes. In my mind I thought he found someone else. I was fucked up! Badly. My love, really left me over some shit he did. If I didn’t speak up about it, he would have kept on doing the same thing. I can’t allow no nigga to walk all over me, I been through too much shit to allow that. 
   Funny thing is, I haven’t gotten my period…… 
   
   
   
   Chapter 8 - palm trees 
    Just my luck right ?  I still haven't got my period and I'm sitting here stressing over some dude . See the things is that right , females always do this shit and it's like the guy is having fun enjoying life while we home stressed. And niggas wonder why females become hoes ! Shit I don't blame them. Even though johnny left my house , it's been actually quiet . I could concentrate on work and just rest . I can't lie , Im so lonely . Johnny comes over once a week to pick up clothing and money that he always has laying around. Whenever he tries to come over he always tries me and it's like i don't have it for you no more bro ! It's a weird feeling, because I love him but I just don't want to fuck him. But anyways let me snap back to reality . Work has been whatever , I need a day off so I can chill with my bitches . I work 7 days a week now just to save money because I would never know if johnny wants to stop deciding to pay my bills . Shit can't depend on no nigga to make them feel as if they putting you on your feet . But today I might have to take off , my body is just so tired . It's Monday , love and hip hop comes on , sip me something nice . My food is on the stove , I just made some rice , chicken and corn , something real simple . As I'm taking the last batch of chicken out my door bell rings . I'm like who the fuck can this be ?!? So I walks to the door , opens it up and it's this nigga Fred . Let me give y'all a little insight about Fred . 5 years ago I was fucking Fred , he was moving weight out of state had me living with him . Nigga was pulling 200,000 a week . I didn't have to pay for school or work . That was the life . He wasn't on my back or anything . Until I cut my hair and he beat the shit out of me . It took him to beat me 5 times to actually get the fuck out of his house . Y'all know how dudes are ! They beat you and then buy you some nice shit , sweet talk you whatever the fuck it is to get you back where you belong . So back to Fred being at my door !  Wassup pretty - Fred said  What do you want ? - I asked  I just wanted to see if it was true , if you left me for some bum ass nigga that got you home alone - he stated  Fred listen, I owe you something ? Because if I don't get the fuck off my door step - I yelled  Matter of fact it's not you , it's your little pretty ass boyfriend . Tell that nigga the deal didn't go through and we need a meeting. He looked at me , kissed me on the cheek , pulled me closer and whispered "the only reason he got you was because I let him " . Fred slowly walked away  I closed the door and was standing there like what fucking deal ? Why is johnny dealing with him knowing what he did to me ? Is everything a lie ! Johnny said he was working in a company ! Crazy thing is I been to his job. Something ain't right , one thing I hate is a liar. I picks up my phone , dialed johnny number  RING RING RING .  After three rings some bitch picks up , Hello ? - she said  Hello , put johnny on the phone thanks you - I said with a little frustration  Bitch who the fuck is this - the girl yelled  Listen bitch , if you don't put him on the phone imma pushed the phone down your throat - I yelled . PUT HIM ON THE MOTHER FUCKING PHONE !!!!!  The line went dead  I looked around to see if she really hung up on me . This bitch has to be out her mind ! So me being me knowing where johnny is at . I gets the fuck dressed ! I got dressed so fast ! I jumped in my car . I was speeding to johnny a little bum ass condo . I parked in the visitors section even though they already know my face and me.  I walked into the lobby and they was like hey ma Bianca , how are you , you don't want to go up there .  I looked at the two guys sitting at the desk and said give me my extra set of keys please .  They couldn't refuse because my name is on this fucking lease to . Shit what they thought !  They kindly gave me the keys , I kindly walked to the elevator. While I'm in the elevator I'm thinking about ways imma fuck both of them up . Man I should of called my bitches because I don't know what I'm walking into. But sometimes you have to do crazy shit alone.  The elevator stops I walk out . Walked to my door puts the key in . Why I see on the couch hugged up , his two bum ass friends and like 6 bitches. I walked in everybody got quiet , johnny didn't notice me yet , until I slapped his ass . The bitch got up so quick ! I pushed that bitch right the fuck down .  So you got this bitch talking crazy ? - I asked him  You really got this bitch answering your phone - I yelled  Fuck is you talking about and if you put your hands on me again imma fuck you up bitch- he said I began to pace ,everybody standing around looking at me . I then pulls up my piece . Nice little glock 22 . I told everybody to just come to the couch . I just want to talk.  Johnny started laughing like this shit was a joke . I slapped his ass again . He tried to jump up I pointed the gun at him .  You think I care if I shoot you right now. ! Nigga I'm on this lease ! This is a break in ! I don't know none of these people I'll shot them.  The girls started crying . Bitch don't start crying , y'all better have that same energy as your friend when she was on the phone .  Baby what's wrong ? - Johnny said  Don't baby me nigga -I said  Now I want all the bitches out the house before I shoot every bitch in here .  They got up but that little dark skin bitch that was talking crazy , I punched her ass so hard and was fucking her up with the broom. I know y'all like where she get the broom from . I didn't want to beat her with the gun so I grabbed the broom that was closes thing to me to whip her little ass . Funny shit is her friends was laughing . I looked at them like what the fuck is funny anybody want next .   Now get the fuck out !  I walked back johnnys little entourage was sitting on the couch stand next to him . I slapped his ass again for making me sweat my edges out .  They grabbed me so fast before I could slap him again . He started getting mad but at the time I didn't give a fuck. I started crying . "You fucking embarrassing me while I'm home worried because Fred came " He cut me off . He jumped up , Fred what ? Bitch you let Fred in my crib ? I knew you was a lying ass bitch- he yelled First of all shut the fuck up. He said the deal didn't go as planned and you better fix it . He also said he let you have me  They all looked at each other  What does that mean , he let you have me ? I asked johnny  I don't want to talk about it yet - Johnny yelled  I should of sent his ass here since you don't want to tell me nothing , you bout to have me dead on somebody news because of a fucking deal and you suppose to be some type of business nigga. You was lying about that too right , just like how you all in love but hugged up with some wack bitch. - I yelled  Honestly shut the fuck up , please I'm not trying to hear that shit right now - he said . I'm upset that someone told me where I rest my head at . He could of saw me in the streets and then he comes to you knowing what he did to you - johnny added on  We all sat in silence for like a minute before the door bell rang . I went out to the door and it was Fred and some niggas like 5 of them .  I turned off the lights and ran back and told johnny .  Johnny and his crew got their guns , and told me to run out on the balcony and go through the other apartment . I couldn't leave johnny like this . But what the fuck was I going to do . Johnny almost pushed me out the fucking way because he didn't want to get hurt . We looked outside and more cars was arriving ! I thought to myself those bitches was a set up or they was following me . Fuck it ! That's now the point.  I whispered, y'all we need to get the fuck out of here ! It's to many of them . I whispered  They all was like fuck that  No seriously these cars pulling up - I mumbled  They all looked at me and jumped to the balconies with me . We ended up in the staircases . I could hear them breaking down the door . We get to the staircase in the lobby and the two men at the desk is dead and their are some people in the lobby waiting for us .  We then ran down the other stair case and when through the back way got into johnny car and his homies got into their car.  We drove past the condos , they didn't know it was us thanks god . My car was broken , they smashed the shit out of my car . Johnny was so tight he lowered the window and started to let go !  Boom boom boom! Shot after shot !  I was in the car jumping back like they was shooting at us . Johnny then sped off .  We was in silence for a while . I thought I was tough to handle this but I was so scared . I never seen anybody get shot like that  Listen B . We going away for a while . Not until my cop friends say it's okay to come back . Give me your phone , Johnny said  He threw my phone out the window  He opened the glove department and grabbed passports .  How the the fuck did you get me a passport without me knowing , is that even legal ? I asked  Bitch shut up please - Johnny said  Before you we knew it , we was at LGA airport .  Mind you I thought he was playing .  Johnny I don't have a phone nothing. Where are we going - I asked  He just grabbed my hand and guided me through the airport .  We went into the bathroom and his friends was there. They handed him a box .  He opened it . It was so much money , a small duffle bag , with IDS , health cards , and their passports .  I only need snoop to roll with me , rj you take care of the trap because we need that up and running . - Johnny said  First of all I don't even know these niggas , never seen them before and trap the nigga trapping what . Man I'm so confused . I thought to myself  We walked out the bathroom and snoop was walking behind us like he was our body guard . I had snoop book bag on , snoop carried the money bag and johnny just held my hand through the airport .  We went through the scanning part which was a piece of cake I was so scared tho .  So Johnny can you tell me where we're going ? - I asked  We going to fly to Miami , stay for a day , get on a cruise ship to Puerto Rico and stay there for a while . Now don't ask me no more questions  By time I could say something smart back we started to board . I looked around for snoop and the nigga was right behind us  Before we got on the plane , snoop phone ringed .  It was Fred  He sent him a video Yooo Johnny you and my bitch is dead . He was in our house with his homies . Sitting on our couch .  I looked at Johnny , snoop looked at him  Make the call - Johnny said  We sat in our seats , and before I knew it the plane began to take off  
   
   
   
   RICK 
   Passengers the seat belt sign is on, please prepare for landing" 
   I was waking up from a nap, I was so tired from 
   Running all day. Shit, it felt like we were in a movie. I look at the monitor on the chair and it said we was in SAN Juan. First who tf does Johnny know in San Juan; I know he's not Spanish. But whatever, I let that go over my hair for a while. 
   I looked over at him and he was on his phone as always. 
   We finally landed, walking through the terminals with snoop, I didn't say a word I just let him guide me through the airport. We were outside of terminal 5 and a car was waiting for us. 
   We all put our things in the trunk, sat down. 
   So, Johnny where are we going? I asked 
    Chill, relax - he said 
   I just looked away. In my mind, I'm like what the fuck is this nigga doing. I don't understand. 
   We drove for about 25 minutes; it was beautiful as fuck out there though. So here we are in the front of this big ass White House. Here comes some Spanish bitch running out.  
   "Johnny papi you ok? " - she yelled 
   I looked at Johnny 
   Looked at snoop 
   Papa ? Who the fuck is this, you have a child? Bitch look older than me - I yelled 
   Johnny ass was still hugging this bitch 
   She then can over and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I backed up because I thought she was coming at me, I didn't know what to expect. 
   I walk over to Johnny and ask him what was going on, he still didn't answer me. 
   Just take your things and sit in the living room - Johnny said 
   Now I'm because I'm still confused. But like a dummy I walked in that house. Mind you this house was super big. As soon as you walk in there's maids and the whole house was white. It was so beautiful. I sat on the couch and waited for everyone to come. It was snoop, the Spanish bitch and Johnny. 
   Biancaz this is Lola, my wife. - Johnny said 
   I looked around. Where's the cameras because this must be a joke - I yelled 
   No baby this is my wife - Johnny said 
   Johnny, you have to kidding me right now, after all this time you have a wife and I’m sitting here hiding with your wack ass. You have some bitch that barely speak English giving me kisses on the cheek. 
    stop, I was going to tell you but Lola understood and I rather have both of yall then leave one of yall- he said 
   Nah bitch you stupid, book my flight, matter fact I’m out. I took my money and cards and left. Mind you the driver was still outside so I told him drive me to the nearest bar. 
   While I’m walking out, Johnny grabs my arm, I nicely removed his hand. Kept on walking out the door 
   Bianca, YOU DON’T HAVE TO DO THIS, I LOVE YOU – he yelled 
   Later, - I said 
   I got my ass right in that car. you see how fast your life changes; you end up changing your life around to be with some man that don’t have no intensions of changing. That’s the problem with people, we never do things for ourselves we always shape our lives to be better for someone else. Majority of the time, they manipulate you, just so you can feel like you need them. In all reality, they need you, don’t let them get the game fucked up. Truth is, I was hurting inside. My fucking life is in danger, I have no home, no nothing. Good thing I have money saved in my account. 
   The driver drove me to the san Juan water and beach club, some little nice white hotel on the beach. He told me to wait here, I looked at him like man I don’t want no more fucking surprises. 
   MS please relax, my cousin is the manger here I’m trying to get you a room for free, get you a comfortable stay with everything free of charge. 
   I looked up and smiled, thank you I said sadly. 
   It took him 10 minutes to come out, he said your good for 5 days, everything is paid for. Here’s your bag go to the front. One more thing, take this envelope, Johnny told me to give it to you. Have a good time MS jasmine. 
   Thank you – I said 
   Walking into this beautiful hotel, the front desk was to my left. Hello MS jasmine, here’s your room key 512. I hope you enjoy your compensated stay. 
   I smiled then walked away. Walking to the elevator I wanted to put my bag down and read this letter but I’ll wait to ill get a drink or two in my system so my ass won’t be crying. I then walked to my room, it was dope, had a big ass bed, glass shower, beach view. I guess I needed this little vacation. I just wish it didn’t go sour like this. fuck it everything happens for a reason, right? RIGHT 
   I then walked to the bathroom, took off my clothes and ran the shower. Before I got in the shower I looked in the mirror and asked myself what is wrong with me? why am I going through this shit? I took the longest shower ever, it felt good, I need it. Got out and the shower and look the only fucking problem is, I only got a bag with money, cards and coins. I don’t have shit to wear. WTF am I going to do? Lord Jesus!  nah what am I going to do?  I can’t walk around here naked. let me just throw on these clothes and go the mall. 
   I got dressed, went to the front, asked for a cab. 
   Mam, where do you want to go? -  the front desk women asked 
   The nearest shopping area – I stated 
   Okay, so your ride would be here in 3 minutes, you could wait outside if you like – she stated 
   I walked outside, and couldn’t believe how beautiful this island was, the palm trees stood so tall. You can hear the water. The air smelt so fresh. I dazed out until I heard the honk of the cab driver. I walked to the cab, got in and he drove off. 
   We drove for about 15 minutes and it felt like the longest ride ever because it was so quiet. I enjoyed the peace and quiet though I needed that shit. We went to some little mall, at least they had SAKS and other stores. I shopped around, brought flip flops, bathing suits, shirts and shorts and a dress just in case I go out. Now that I got a couple of outfits, I was ready to go back to the hotel change and get drunk. Just to think of it I still haven’t read that bum ass letter. I walked to the front of the mall they were cabs parked in front, I seen the guy that brought me here. He offered to take me back. On our way, back to the hotel, the driver was asking me so many questions. Where are you from? are you alone? why are you alone? ETC. I answered politely, the best I could. First, my ass was aggravated and I wanted to get dressed and drunk by my damn self. He finally got me back to the hotel. I paid him and he said “see you soon MS”, whatever the fuck that meant, I smiled and waved. I walked into the hotel, waited for the elevator and walked to my room. Got dressed and headed upstairs to the roof top bar. This was kind of nice you know, the view, everything. I wore some jean shorts, flip flops and a little tank, something super comfy. Found me a seat at the corner of the bar, people were dancing, mingling and all. I loved the vibe. 
   Hi my name is Ricardo, what can I get you? – the bartender asked 
   Anything frozen and a shot of patron – I said 
   Can I see your room key? – he asked 
   Here you go, I stated as I handed it to him. 
   Good Bianca, everything that you order up here is half off, okay beautiful – Ricardo said 
   Really? ill drink to that – I shot back 
   We both laughed 
   He then came over with a frozen mango and strawberry margarita, and my shot of patron. 
   Thank you – I said   let’s take this shot together jasmine – Ricardo said 
   Awesome let’s go it – I said cheerfully   patron makes my body so damn hot, lord Jesus   wooooooooooo!!! – I yelled 
   That shit was strong as fuck! 
   Let me get you another shot jasmine – Ricardo said 
   I nodded 
   As he was making my shot, I pulled out the letter from my bag. 
   
   
   “I love your Bianca, my fault about everything, I love you girl. I didn’t treat you right because I didn’t know how to. yes, I’m married! but you know what nothing changed about me and you. you’re my world. Listen she is my protection, if I didn’t have her in my life, I would be dead. I married this bitch back in the day because her father was the fucking plug, I needed him in my corner. Since they killed her father ive overseen the game. Lola is my wife, yes she is but nothing comes before you and I. Therefore, she respects you, Jasmine it’s not safe in san Juan, I need you to come back to the house. Here’s the address 305 jane road “ 
   
   
   Yeah whatever nigga, I ripped that shit up so fast. 
   Bianca here’s another shot and margarita, some guy over there sent it to. I looked over and he waved. I waved back, he was tall dark skin, beautiful smile. He had curly hair and his body was built, lord Jesus. He looked like Q from love and basketball. Shit I was to love his basketball too shit! he then walked over, I was nervous as hell. 
   I like your hair – he said 
   I like your hair – I said 
   He reached out his hand, my name is Rich. And you are? – he asked 
   Hi my name is Bianca. 
   Can I sit here next to you; I know you’re here alone I seen you by yourself the whole time. 
   So, you were watching me huh? – I asked 
   You must be from New York, so aggressive – he said 
     
   I laughed a little, yeah I am Rich. 
   We talked for a couple of hours, drink a whole lot. Before I could know it, it was 1am, and I was drunk. 
   Jasmine lets walk the beach before I walk you to your room – he asked 
   I agreed and walked to the elevator, we walked through the hotel lobby, it was quiet as hell. He took my hand and we walked on the beach. The sand was warm and it was still warm outside. We walked the beach quietly. He then got behind me and whispered, look at the moon, someone on the other side of the world is looking at the same thing. 
   How do you know ? – I asked him 
   I know everything – he said , I know you want me he added on 
   Oh yeah , - I said 
     
   He then turned me around and kissed me softly on my lips. We shared a passionate kiss for a while , he then grabbed me closer , I felt his dick print . In my mind I was like yes felt the dick for one please ! he then lowered me to the sand and got on top of me . We kissed some more , licking each other lips . He then kissed me gently on my neck, BOOM!! WATERFALLS!!! Pussy was wet hunny! He then took off my shorts, sucked on the inner side of my thighs, I let out a moan and before you know it he was eating the treasure. He knew exactly what he was doing. AMEN, after a bad day I need some D! 
   You taste so good – he whispered. 
   He then whipped out his Johnson, you ever seen a D so pretty you wanted to hug it. Lord it was chocolate and he was bold! AMEN. he then without no hesitation entered inside me. My god he was huge, but he knew what he was doing, usually guys have big dicks and be stiff as fuck. Back to this popping ass sex though. He was working me, he then turned me around, smacked kissed grabbed, all that lord ,it was amazing. He then released himself and we laid on the sand. 
   That was good, right? – he said 
   Yeah it was – I said 
   I needed to give you something before you left – he said 
   I’m not leaving no time soon -I said 
   He received a phone, and said yeah I’m ready, and hung up 
   I sat in silence, and got dressed.  
   I heard footsteps but didn’t turn around quick enough. I was being dragged through the sand. 
   I was yelling, kicking screaming, nobody heard me 
   RICK!! RICK HELP!! 
   Rick told me to be calm and relax. 
     
   I spit on him, he then stepped on my stomach, and spit back on me. I coughed out loud, I was extremely hurt. They dragged me to a van and slammed the door. I was banging on the door, nobody would answer. What the fuck is going on? Somebody please tell me – I yelled.  I thought to myself this nigga done fucked me and set me up! DAMN 
   We came to a stop, the guy opened the door and before I knew it, he had a towel to my mouth and I was out ……… 
     
   
   
   
   What Does This Mean ? 
     
   Being out for so long , anything could of happened to me . I was day day dreaming about things that i thought my life would be like . Thinking about why i came here ( to puerto rico), why did i even put myself in this position ? What the fuck is wrong with me ? I honestly have to be a fool.  
   
   
     
   
   
   I suddenly was woken up by a splash of water thrown in my face,my vision was blurry . I had to shake my head like five times. The place that i was held in was a kitchen , im looking around to see where the hell am i ? I finally look and I se Rich.  
   
   
     
   
   
   So bianca ,how are you feeling ? asked rich 
   What do you want rich ? I have no money , i have nothing. Screamed bianca 
   It's not about the money , it's about johnny , see the thing is you don't understand who you are dealing with hunny. Johnny stole all our money to invest into , I dont give a fuck, but the money is in your name . Now unless you want to die or become my slave . Give me my fucking money - explained Rick 
   For a minute i was confused as fuck. I'm honestly trying to understand and wrap this around my head. 
   I looked at him and tears began to fill my eyes  
   I dont know what you are talking about - Bianca cried 
   I know you don't , but your going to get it - said rich 
   HOW?!? - bianca yelled 
   Call him - rich strugged  
   He then handed me the phone . 
   Binca  began to dial johnny's number  
   Hello , rich whats up man ? I got that for you - johnny said  
   I stayed silent ,becuase this mother fucker had the adusity to answer the phone , and he fucking set me up . This bastard knew what he was doing . I continued to stay silent  
   Did you kill her yet ? I know she was in the way of things but she had to go . I love bianca but she knows too much - said johnny  
   I dropped the phone , I think dropped to the floor . Rich caught me while he still continued to hold the phone with his should to his ear . He looked at me like he felt bad for me 
   Okay cool send me the accounts number johnny , I'll need them in 2 hours - said rich  
   He then hung up . 
   Bianca , i need you to focus , I need you to get it together . After we get this money out your account , you can go , I won't kill you as he asked me to. As i can see , business is business but truthfully i run this business . I don't murder Women.  
   I looked up at him in disbelief  
   I was speechless  
   Someone who I left my job for , someone who fucked up my whole life . I devoted my life to this man, I can't believe he would do such a thing.  
   Okay - Bianca said  
   Rich then walked me out the kitchen , whatever the fuck it was . We kept on walking down the hall. Ended up in his living , that shit was like all white , glass everywhere. It was huge. Big ass chandlers. I kept on following his every footsteps , this man did kidnap so you know I have to be cautious. We finally got to his room , the view was spectacular , it was crazy as fuck . The bed was like two queens put together . All blue decor with nice ass cotton  grey sheets , the bathroom was inside his room. All glass in his bathroom ,with shower that actually talked back. Rich walked into the bathroom.  
   Hot water please monica - he asked 
   The water began to come down and steam up the bathroom 
   Rich looked at me sitting on his couch , seem to as if he was really sorry for me . Little that he knew i was sorry for myself. 
   Here take this towel and washcloth , go take a hot shower , rest your body. Sorry for kicking you and spitting at you . I'm really sorry , i didn't really know the whole situation. I'll be back , I'm going to get you food , and some clothing .  
   Mind you it was 2 am , so where the fuck was he going ? At this point i wasn't in a space to question him.  
   Okay - bianca sad sadly  
   The shower was my highlight of the night , the water was running so smooth on my body . I began to cry loudly like a baby, i shouted , i yelled , i screamed until i didn't have any energy. I sat in the shower for about 2 hours just thinking and wondering why? By the time i got out the shower , Rich was sitting there counting money. I just walked past him and took my towel off and layed down. 
   You can stay here , until you get establish and get your money to go home and possibly find somewhere to go.  
   I just looked at Rich .  
   Bianca , i know what it's like, trust me . If you want johnny to die , it can happen.  
   No -bianca said  
   I'm thinking of something so much better , i'll take over his territory and take his product away. Bianca said  
   Really ? this is not for you - rich stated  
   Trust me, nothing is but i know everything - bianca said  
   Before i knew it i was sound asleep , i felt rich body next to mine. I might sound crazy but i felt safe but a man who kidnapped me. 
   
   
   
   
   
   
   
   
   The sun shines bright through his drapes, I turned around and rich was gone  
   There was a note and about $100,000  on the bed with a brand new phone. 
   “ Bianca , good morning ,hope you slept well. I'm currently going to wire transfer the money back to me. Here's so money to go eat , and go to the spa . Do something to take your mind off of things . Security will be with you all times. The access to the beach is through the kitchen. Call me if needed . I programmed my number in your new phone. Again im sorry im just trying to make you safe as possible so you can return home” -Rich 
   
   
     
   
   
   First of all , all this money for what ? Shit i'm going to take it . I walked to the living room , to look at the view of the pool and half of the beach view. The maid asked me if i was hungry . I nodded.  
   She then came back with , bacon , waffles , eggs and fruit with a side of orange juice. I felt like i was in heaven , after being fucking kidnapped. 
     
   Just when i was about to pick up the phone to call lena ass, rich was calling me . I picked up  
   Hey bianca , you okay ? Rich asked  
   yeah i am , thank you for everything and the kidnapping -bianca said  
   Rich giggled  
   You ate ? rich asked  
   Yeah , the workers in your home are wonderful - bianca said  
   Ofcourse they are - rich said  
   Well im just checking up on you , theres car keys in the drawer next to the tv , if you need to go somewhere give patrick my body guard thed keys he will drive you . ill see you later - rich said  
   Rich when would you be back , im scared - bianca said  
   You have nothing to worry about - rich said  
   okay - bianca said  
   He then ended the call 
     
   Oh shit i have to call Lena , I thought to myself 
   
   
     
   
   
   LENA oh my god , you wouldn't believe what the fuck happened ……... 
   
   
   Text: Kerri morgan Editing: Kerri Morgan All rights reserved. Publication Date: March 8th 2019 https://www.bookrix.com/-imc296c26446875