text: Jasmine Chang Reckless To my lovely fans! Stay strong lovelys!  
   
   
   Chapter one Seeing the world as my own 
   I put the joint in my mouth and blew in the nasted stuff then blew out a cloud of smoke.I cough and smile and laugh as I saw the world much clearer and my problems fading away.I shut of the joint and got up from the floor in my bathroom.I trip ou tof the bathroom and fell on my bed as I saw the world as my own.Bright coulors and happiness blown everywhere.I sat up in my bed and giggle then got up and grab a couple of hundred doller bills.I went out of the little cramp aparment as I call home.I walk out and saw the busey cars zooming by and everything seem fuzzy now.Confuse,I walk down the side walk and laugh at a couple that were holding hands and spoke "h-ello" I  yelled my words at them.the man whisper in the girl ear. 
     
   Then star at mine eyes."Are you ok miss?" "Am I ok?" The question fumble with my brain Am I really? No."Yes!" I answer to him with a goofey grin."Bye!!" I said then left.I turn right into a ally.With the one blinking street light.I smile as I saw who was walking up to me."You got the cash?"  said the voice hidden in the shawdows "fuck yea I do" I threw him the money."Now wheres my stuff" The guy sigh and a bag was pass across the floor by my foot.I pick up the clear bag and saw all the white powder. 
     
   "You know you really don't have to do drugs.." I frown "And you know you dont have to sell them" "Whatever go break your body i try to help you every time but no you don't want my fucking help i'm done." he said and with that I heard the trail of footsteps fading away.I scroff "Whatever" I put the bag in my bra and then walk out of the ally to a club.I smirk and headed in loud music blar across the room making my heart beat faster. 
     
   I saw an empty bar table and sat down.The waitress came it was a girl."Hi how may i-  "Just give me whatever that is your strongest" I cut her off She nod and left.She came back with a shot glass and left.I grab the shout glass with my hand and put it up to my lips i drank it the burning in my throat was terrible but it felt so good.I hadd three more shots on my table.I drank them all.My head was all fuzzy like my vison.And thats the last thing I rember. 
   
   
   
   chapter two sober and wasted 
   I  tumble out of the bar at three in the morning,Totally sober and wasted.I chug the rest of the beer and threw it at the wall.I walk some more tripling over my own feet.Then I fell on the floor.I try to get back up but I didn't want to.I laid still my chest rising up and down as my heart beat with life.I turn my head and saw bright lights and a car honking and that was when I saw a bus hault to a stop.I was under it not careing if I did got run over or not.I heard some yelling as the bus door open "I  think we hit  a deer harry relax." "No Liam It was a girl!" "Lads,If we hit something or someone I thing there would be blood on the bus it was all in your mind Harry." "But I swear" "Harry we had a long day at the concert you need rest" "No Zayn.Im right and your all wrong i swear" His voice crack.I look over and saw the guys shoes from under the bus."Harry" the guy name Zayn sighed "think what louis said we did have a stressful day so its in your mind relax" I guess harry sighed then I had to open my sober mouth. 
     
   "The guy is-s right-t you know-w" I slur out.I heard the breath get caught in there mouth as they all kneel down and saw me under there bus."O my dear! Are you alright." "well a bus is on top of me so...yes just peachy" I mutter "Here were going to pull you out ok?" "I dont five a flying fuck" "so is that an ok?" "yea whatever" I rolled my eyes.I felt a pair of hands grab my sholders and pull me out from under the bus."Can you move?Is anything broken?" Said the buzz hair cut dude."No." but my heart and myself..my brain said."Here lets help you up" Whatever" I said as the help me up.Confusion wash all over the guy face who help me up."What?" "its nothing but.." he trail off "but what?" "but your really light" "uh yea ok.." I said very akwardly. 
     
   "Your arm" the guy mutter "huh?" I look down and saw a big gash with blood flowing down from it."its just a little cut" I shrug but not taking my eyes off from it."Little? No no no Big come on were going to help you." The guy said and took my other ok hand and took me on the bus.With the other guys behind."What's your name?" "Scarlet or scar for short" I said then open my moutrh again "How about you guys?" They laugh but so my confuse face then stop."You really don't know?" "Uh no why would I be asking you then hmmm?" "Well im harry thats zayn thats Niall thats louis and thats Liam." "O ok." I yawn "tire?" "yes so i should be leaving." "No stay you can sleep over" ""pointed to a couch" "O lovely" I said then walk over to it and crash on it."Goodnight scar" They all said "Night" I said back and shut my eyes and fell into an dreamless sleep. 
     
     
   
   
   
   Chapter three the truth of me 
   I woke up and saw the boys above me with glars on there faces."What?" "What? What!" Harry said to me and cross his arms "Yea what?" "This" Harry pulled out the the plastic bag of the white powder my eyes fell on it and stood there."calm down harry" He sighed "You do drugs?" Liam said more calmer "Yea so?" "So?" Liam raise and eye brow "so its bad for you.you need help" Zayn siad While I just laugh "Help?" I keep laughing "I don't need anybodys bloody help" I said coldy at all of them.I got up "Now good day." "No your staying." "No i'm not." Louis took a step forward "You are." "No now bye" I barley touch the door knob but louis pulled me butI kick and scream "Let go off me you fucking babribe ken doll." He rolled his eyes and put me on the couchThis is kidnaping you know?" "No It louisnapping" He grin I mentally face palm myself "Now lets speak" "we been speaking" I sighed and put my feet up on the table."So let's start from the beginning Scar" "No Lets start never" "please just let us help" "Go die" "please scar" "jump off an cliff its fun go now" "Scar" Liam said and sat down next to me."thats my name!" I smile and frown as I saw him looking serious "your all boring now." Louis fake gasp "boring?" "Yes" "well then" 
     
   Zayn hit louis head "shut it" He mutter to louis I sighed and sat up "Want to know the truth? want to see the real me?" "Yes" Harry answer I got up "It started when I was sixteen My father work in a gang and I join they selled drugs and killed people and I help...With the drugs of course" "You poor thing!" Liam said i rolled my eyes and scroff "No dont give me asny of that nice shit" I stood up."Now I must go you fags" They all look hurt but i had to or they wont let me go.I push Niall out of my way but saw the bus moiving I sighed. "Can we stop?" "no your staying" Niall said "Where are we anyways?"  The boys look at one another them back to me."You know what dont tell me i dont give a damn" I said and then spoke up again "Stop the bus!" I yelled the bus stop as the breaks squeak the boys tumble over each other while I stay in my  place. "Good bye" I said and walk to the door I open it and jump out and started walking thee other direction. 
   
   
   Publication Date: April 14th 2013 https://www.bookrix.com/-minght.girl.fangs