text: Austyn Irvin Collé a Vous 
   
   
   Caught, Again 
   I pulled up to the school's football field, right where he told me to meet him. When I found him, I got out of my car and went to what he was doing. When I got up there, my heart was racing and I already got a guess for what, who, what he did / about to do. I threw the closest thing to me, a small twig, enough to grab his attention, as hard as I could and he hit the back of his neck and left a little red mark. 
   I could still make out his dark hair and his eyes, those eyes always reminded me of the first time we met, and it never failed. He was so strong and he never ceases to amaze me just how much I still care for him. But this is the last straw. I've had it all the way to the top, and I'm sick of it. 
   The girl that Ayden was shoving his tongue in her throat started cussing at me and yelling at me, then tried to even hit me. How cute. 
   Last time I checked, my name is not Stupid, I'm not going to fight her I do not need her shit or yours, as a matter of fact. " I turned around and walked away, I was supposed to be watching the game with him. Looks like our plans have changed after all. 
   "It's honestly not what looks like it, I promise." Hey grabbed my arm and spun me around. I yanked my arm away from him and turned to face him. "If it's not what it looks like, Ayden, then why you were all over her. Again? Explain that to me. "Ayden did not reply, I turned around and started walking back to my car, shaking my head. This is the third time I caught him cheating on me, and the very last. "Babe, do not do this." He tried to stop me again. It's not going to work this time. I kept ignoring him like he was not there. I finally got into my car and threw myself into the driver's seat. "Olivia, please, I know what I did wrong, please do not leave me." Ayden was pleading, once again. He is acting like I did not just make him out with that slut. Same girl, all three times. I have learned from the first time and the second. This time, I'm not going back to him. I do not need him anymore. He obviously does not need me. "Olivia." I flipped him off and drove away. I should have listened to my mother. He just stood there, in the middle of the parking lot, right before the football game ended, looking sad. How pathetic, he thinks I'm going to run back to him, I will not. I'm not that stupid anymore. m going to run back to him, I will not. I'm not that stupid anymore. m going to run back to him, I will not. I'm not that stupid anymore. 
   I laughed all the way home. It does not matter to me anymore. He's not mine anymore. Hey never what, I should not have gone back to him the first time. I got into my driveway and my mom came out, along with my baby sister. "Oh, honey, I heard about what happened. Are you all right?" I gave my mom a look, I'm not even out of my car and she already knows what happened between me and Ayden. "He told me, he asked me to tell you to show you this." My mom handed me her phone, with a long text about how much he loves me, why could not this be the first time we got into a fight? "Mom, I do not want to read this, I just did not know how to do it." Mistake number one. ' 
   My mom took her back before I could type anything into her phone. "No, I want to talk face-to-face. Woman-a-mano." I do not know Spanish, but I'm pretty sure it's not how it goes. "Mom, I'm not going to talk to him, I'm not going to talk to him, I'm not going back to him." My mom looked sad, she warned me about him. Why is she so sad about it? 
   Lexis to get sick. My mom forced me into the house. Mom does not have to babysit while she is at work or at the store. My mom had dinner made when I got back. Today was a good day, until about 30 minutes ago. I got a hundred on my math test, I made a friend of mine, and then he cheated on me with that fake blonde cheerleader who always makes sure that her butt is hanging out of her shorts when she goes I have a V-neck to school and my favorite pair of skinny jeans. Sorry, but I do not see anything wrong with that, it was still covering my nipples, and you could not see my cervix while I was wearing my pants. Thanks though. I'll pass. 
   My mom is beautiful, she was a model actually. She has long beautiful curly hair, dyed, of course. It suits her. My baby sister, Lexis, is almost three. She has brown hair and blue eyes, my mom's color eyes, and looks so adorable in pink, but really, Lexis does anything look good. I have light brown hair and hazel eyes, that matches my birth father, whom I do not talk to anymore, but it's all right. I do not need him either. I do not need any in my life, I have my mom and my baby sister. I've got all I need. 
     
   On Monday, it was raining. When does it not rain here? Washington is known for its rain, maybe a few other things, but mainly the rain, I got to school, and of course, Ayden was there waiting for me. I've passed him and he's trying to grab me and my attention. I turned around, again, and faced him. I let him know how I felt with one finger and walked to class, leaving him in the dust. 
   Once lunch came rolling around, I did not sit with Ayden, I sat by myself outside, and far away from him as possible, but even if we were on different planets, he still would not be far enough. I sat where the rainwater did not get on my food, that I was not going to eat anyways. 
   A few of his friends tried to come back and talk. I read my feelings on the subject, and then I went to the garbage can, threw away my trash and walked to the bathroom where I did not know what to do me. Or so I thought, Carmen, Ayden's sister, came in and started to tell me all about his moping around his house all night long, and that's where I lost her. I stopped listening because I did not want to hear another word about Ayden. If I do, I'll end up killing someone. 
   Ayden made his bed, now it's time for him to lay in it. Even if I'm not in it. 
   I think he'll live. I'm not going to make that mistake. If he did it once, and again after that, I'm not going to risk the heartache. I do not need anymore, I've had plenty. 
   When the bell wrestled, Carmen left for class, after telling me to think about it long and hard, I went to class and texted my mom. I told her everything that Carmen had told me. My mom texted me back after class and told me how stupid that sounded. I agreed with her and turned off my phone, I was starting to get spam from almost everyone now. Ayden just does not know how to keep his mouth shut, does he? By now, almost everyone Ayden has cared about me. 
   Each one I sent back "If he cared about me then why his tongue down Mary's throat?". They never responded back after that. Which was what I was expecting and wanting. But one did not. He had to be different. Cameron messaged me back and told me that Ayden was just experimenting with other girls. So, basically he was saying that Ayden only wanted hoes and I was just a booty call. 
   Way to cheer on your best friend, Cameron. 
   I would say that I would say it would be better to say I would say it would not be the same for me. Not a single word. 
   Then I remembered that I really liked his younger sister. She was really sweet and cute. I could still talk to her, maybe she's the only one I really want to talk to. I really do not want to talk to other people. 
   I just laughed and deleted the message I was calling you something and things that would make you a horrible person. My mom really does not need to see that. I know that I should tell my mom about the names that they are calling me. But I really did not care. 
   Ayden finally came to me again. When he stopped me, he told me not to say anything until he got a chance to say something. "Listen, Olivia, I still love you, I might have fucked it all up. And I know that I'm going over the same girl over and over, and I should have told you to stay away, and I should have I was stupid and I really wish that I could take everything back, and last night was bright, and this morning. When I looked at my phone, sure she texted me, but it wasn't ' I love you, and I want you back. " 
   I shook my head. "It's going to take more than twelve hours for you to realize what you've actually hurt me more than I'm hurting you right now." I'm walking away from him, once again, and walked to my car. My phone is still off in my backpack, and I do not think I'm on it now. It's going to stay off for a while. 
   I should be up to all this. But I'm not. I'm happy, I feel so much better. I do not have any weight on my chest or shoulders anymore. I feel free, so much better and happy. 
   Lexi is over at daycare for a little while. I started and finished my homework, then sat down on my bed for a little. I thought about picking up little miss from daycare, but I can not do that unless my mom told you that I was picking up her. And I do not think she did. So picking up is not happy. 
   Then I thought that maybe I could just go to the park or something. That sounds better than just sitting down on my bed doing nothing until my mom gets home. I got up from my bed and went to the marbled counter, that went to a little bit past my waist, and when I leaned over to gave my key's from the other side of the counter. I got my shirt caught on the sharp corner and when I got my shirt got pulled up I knew I was the only person home, and when I was looking up my window my neighbor's was trying hard not to laugh. I put my head down in embarrassment and felt my face get hot. 
   He just saw everything, and not even on purpose. 
   And then I realized, what is he doing in our backyard? I just did not want to go back and ask him, because of the show that I just accidentally put on ... or took off talking to him. 
   Everything about that kid was cute, I say kid because I do not know how to be old, I do not see him at school, and he does not do anything. They just moved in, not even a month ago. His older brother, I know for a fact, goes to my school, and looks almost like his youngest brother. They both have dirty blonde hair and brown eyes. At first look, you would have thought they would have blue eyes by the color of their hair. Guess again. 
   I got back in the kitchen and they were both in the back now, and my mom was back with little Lexis. The littlest brother looked at me and smiled, that made his brother look at me, and when he smiled too, I could have been a puddle at his feet, No wonder why all the girls would talk about him, he had the most beautiful smile. 
   I started comparing him to Ayden, and I realized I really should not. He looks like he'd be so much better than Ayden. I pulled up my 'big girl panties', like Halley, my friend who was not at school today, would say it, and I walked outside and was right next to my mom. The youngest brother would not stop staring at me, but the oldest brother is giving the youngest a death stare. 
   "Olivia, this is Troy," My mother was gestured to the youngest brother. "and this is Noah." She pointed at the tallest, oldest boy. I nodded at both of them, pushing off the fact that the youngest one saw my shirt. I put my head down and looked at the ground. My mom started to struggle with holding Lexis. "Okay, looks like it's time for a nap." C'mon Lexis, Olivia, please be nice and bring them some drinks, they're helping out with the yard work. " I nodded and went inside, followed by my mom and Lexis. She put some cold bottles of water out of the fridge. 
   I went back outside and handed it to you. Troy put whatever he did down and came over to me. "Nice show you put on earlier." He winked. I felt my face get hot. "That's funny, last time I was in Middle School, and what are you talking about?" Noah said to his brother. I hid my face in my jacket. "She was grabbing something off the counter and got her shirt on the counter." Noah looked over at me and then back to his brother. "You are a pervert." Noah punched his arms arm and Troy punched him back. 
   "Hey now, let's not do it," I said and put my hands up, they did not listen to each other. Then they stopped but started whispering names to each other. I called them both childish and walking up to my poor, next to my mom 
   "I think they are really going to like it here." I nodded, they just need to start getting along better. 
   
   
   
   Heartfelt 
   * Noah's POV *: 
     
    She was surprisingly different from the last time he saw her when they had first moved in. She seemed more taller now, but that was just a month ago. He would see her walking around the hallways, but never really payed attention to her at all. Noah's brother, of course, described the 'show', as he had called it, to his brother. Noah wasn't all that into the fact that his brother got to see that and not him, and of course, Troye get's to see it all before he's the age of sixteen.  
   Noah isn't the type to get jealous easy, so this is definitely a new experience to him. It was hard for Noah not to lay the whole scene in his head, so he knows how it must be for his little brother.  
   Noah got up out of bed and started to get ready for school, Noah didn't even bother to wake up his brother for school. It's his responsibility, and that is something that Troye needs to learn. 
   When Noah had got to school, the first person he started to look for was Olivia. To Noah, she was the most beautiful person he has ever laid eyes on. And when they had first met, she's all he could think about. Sure, it wasn't all that hard to divert attention away from the though, Noah already has tons of girls trying to be with him, some are just for a night, and that's not what Noah wants. Noah already knows what he wants, and if Olivia isn't one of those girls standing in line, then he want's nothing to do with anyone.  
   Olivia walked passed Noah, and all he could think about is what Troye had said to him about yesterday. The little punches that Troye had given his older brother didn't leave any marks, but that doesn't mean that he didn't leave any on Troye. And whatever Troye got, he deserved. But if only there was something there that wasn't missing, like their mother.  
   Noah's mother always kept them two in check, whenever they started fighting, their mother would come out, guns blazing, and put them in their places. But sense she has died, in that terrible car accident, their father wasn't the same, and their father hasn't really left his room, and the only time he had left was when he had decided it was time to move out, and start all over. Starting over is nice, sometimes, this was one of the times. Just walking around the house was a horror show, finding pictures of mom scattered all over the floor, and her clothing was in boxes, all over the place. It was a harsh reminder to their father, he was so in love with her.  
   After they had all found out that she couldn't have any more children, which wasn't a good thing to their mother, she wanted a girl, and Noah also wanted a baby sister, he wanted to be protective of her and treat her like a princess, nothing he could do with Troye, their father was devistated. It was one of the appointments that she was going to for her to be able to have one more child, and when she was coming back, she was hit by a car head on, and he was drunk and on the wrong side of the road. 
   Noah walked into Olivia, he had forgotten that he had started to walk to class, and had not noticed that she had stopped to look around, like she forgotten where she was. "Hey, are you okay?" Noah helped Olivia off the gound and picked up her things. "Yeah, it felt like I just stopped and the brick wall just kept moving." She rubbed her head with her free hand d took her belonings with her free hand. "Sorry, that was my fault, I stopped paying attention to everything else." Noah started walking with Olivia, and she followed him. "Yeah, me too." She started to stare off into space for a minute. "Are you okay though? No major injuries?" Olivia shook her head, her light brown waves moving with her head. "No, nothing that I can tell, at least." Olivia moved her hair from out of her face.  
   If things would have started out differently, he would have changed yesterdays occurants. 
   Olivia grabbed Noah's hand, at first Noah was confused, then just went along with it. She laced her fingers through his, and he still didn't do anything about it but hold hers back, until a person came up and forced her to let go of his hand. "Hey, why are you touching my girl like that?" Olivia tried to push him back and away from Noah. Noah was way taller than him, almost towering over him and he looks like he hasn't slept in days. "Hey, man. I'm not trying to start a fight." Noah put his hands up defensively, he wasn't trying to start a fight with him. That is, until Ayden had pushed him backwards, but Noah didn't even budge. "Listen here you piece of solid rock, that is my girl, you will not touch her like that anymore." 
   "Ayden, last time I checked we weren't together anymore." Ayden flung himself around to look at Olivia. He grabbed her and started to yell at her. Noah let reflexes take over and he grabbed Ayden by his backpack and turned him around, and brought him face to face with him. "If you ever talk to her like that again, call her those names ever, I swear to God, all Hell's going to break lose and no one is going to save you." Ayden didn't say or do anything, and Noah put him back down and went to Olivia.  
   Olivia was shaking and she looked like she was about to cry. Noah put his arms around her in a hug and brought her as close to him as possible. "And, Ayden, I'll never be yours again." She mumbled out of my chest. Ayden turned around and started talking to his friends, who didn't help him at all when Noah was 'talking' to him. 
   Olivia was finding it hard to breath, not because her face was pressed against Noah's chest, who was now talking to the resource officer, but because she could feel her anxiety starting to take over, and the only thing that was keeping her calm was the scent of Noah's cologne. After Noah had finished talking to the officer, they told Noah to take me to class, and to always come and pick me up from class until she is better enough to walk to class herself.  
   Noah nodded and pulled her off of his chest. "Kay, let's go get you to class." Olivia nodded, but she didn't want to go to class, she wanted to stay with him in his arms and just stay there all day and do nothing. Of course life always takes its course and things happen, but it wouldn't hurt anyone if it was just one day.  
   Just for a day... that would be nice.  
   But school comes first, then he could have his summer rommance, or something. And it was definitly 'or something', because Noah is hoping that it is going to last longer than that.  
   Pushing all thoughts aside, Noah walked Olivia all the way to class, and walked into first an second period late, but judging by the reactions by the teachers, the principal had already emailed them about what had happened out in the hallways.  
   At lunch, Noah sat with Olivia and a few of her friends. Ayden was sitting at the other end of the cafeteria. No one at the table that they were all sitting at took notice of his at all, that is, until Ayden came up to Noah. "No matter what, I will always love her." Noah nodded, he might always love her, but there is something about her that I know he will never have. "Yeah, you might have loved her, but I would never have the balls to cheat on a girl, with the same girl, more than once." The girls sitting at the table knew what Ayden was trying to do, and the heat in Ayden's face was starting to become visible to everyone at the table. Ayden didn't say much after that, just started with hand gestures and a few mumbles about how he was sorry, but Noah felt like he didn't really mean it. 
   Noah pushed it a little too far by standing up protectively next to Olivia. Ayden became intimidated and puffed out his chest like a blow fish. That made Noah chuckle. "You honestly think I'm going to let you even look at her again? She told you to leave her alone, she doesn't want you around anymore." Ayden looked up in shock at the words that Noah had just said.  
   Olivia stood up next, but no one really paid any attention to her, cause the scene that was unfloding in front of everyone else was too great. It was like watching a lion go heat-to-head with a buck who's rack was too big for it's britches.  
   Noah was very intimidating and if he wanted to, he could really knock down Ayden in a swift swoop, it shouldn't be that hard. Some people were encouraging a fight, others were telling Noah it wasn't worth it, or reminding Ayden that his parole wasn't completely up yet, and getting into a fight would cause Ayden to go to jail. That's what he get's for getting into all those fights last year.  
   Ayden threw the first hit, but it didn't hit Noah, it landed on Olivia's right arm, and that's when Noah lost all control and pushed Ayden away from her and away from the crowd. The officer came up again, and grabbed Noah, and the principal grabbed Ayden. Noah wasn't going to hit Ayden, maybe a few said words, but he didn't want to hit Ayden. Ayden was still swinging at Noah for a while, until the officer was able to let Noah go after he realized that Noah wasn't going to hit him back. It looked like Ayden got tired and he just gave up trying to struggle and get out of their grasp, and stopped swinging long enough for them to put the cuffs on.  
   Noah didn't really care how long he had detention for, just as long as he knew that Olivia was okay, that's all that mattered. Noah's head started to spin, Ayden had actually hit Olivia, and he didn't know if he meant to do that or if he was trying to hit him and missed. But that still isn't okay, and that made Noah mad.  
   Noah tried to find Olivia, but when he went to the place where he had left her, she was gone. The bell hasn't even rang to go to third period yet, but the crowds are starting to form, and it is making it hard for Noah to get passed to find her.  
   Noah had stopped at the table that they were at, and by this time the bell has rung and kids started to leave for class. Ayden shouldn't be bother her no more, he violated parole. And if he does get out of jail, then he won't be allowed back on school premises. No felons allowed policy.  
   Noah turned around and started to walk to third when little arms wrapped around him, and when he looked down, he saw that familiar light brown hair. "Hey, I'll walk you to class, get your things." Olivia didn't move. She jusst stood there for a minute, then she shook her head. "I don't want to go to class. I want to go home." Noah shook his head. "No, you need to stay at school. Come on, I'll walk you to class, I won't let anything happen to you, I promise. Ayden won't be bothering you again."  
   What was so shocking to Noah was how fast their relationship was progressing, they just became friends, and now he is sticking up for her and treating her like she was his girlfriend, he would treat he so much more better if she were. And for once for that past few years, Noah felt happy. An actual smile was on his face and he was able to actually laugh without it being forced out.  
   It was hard enough already to go on with life without his mother, but he still made it this far. He can keep going. He's kept going, and if his mother were to look down on him now, she would be proud, so proud, to see that he's made it this far without her, even though he's needed her through so much, he still made it this far.  
   Third and fourth period went by faster than normal, and when school was let out, Noah rode home with Olivia instead of riding the bus all the way home.  
   Noah knew now that Ayden was going to jail that he shouldn't bother Olivia for a while, and that made Noah sad because he didn't have an excuse to walk her to class anymore, and that made his heart hurt just a little. Olivia pulled into her driveway, Noah thanked her for the ride and got out of the car and walked over to his house.  
   Troye isn't home yet, he rides that bus home. Noah felt glad that he had a few minutes to himself without his brother. Noah sat down on his bed for a few minutes and enjoyed the silence while his dad was at work, and his brother is still sitting on the bus. Noah just closed his eyes and rested for a minute, until he heard his brothers bus stop just down a little ways at the bus stop, which is just a few feet from the house. Noah didn't get up to unlock the door, Troye has a key anyways. 
   Then he remembered that when he walked in, that he say his brothers key's sitting on the counter, and chuckled, then got up out of bed to go let in his brother, but not with out a little punishment for leaving his keys home, when I might have had football practice today, which was canceled due to the field flooding. Noah stood in front of the door, hearing his brother cuss as he was looking for his keys. Troye walked off the front porch and headed for the back, which is now also locked.  
   Noah tried hard not to laugh as his brother walked around the house to find a way in, and Troye's room was on the top floor, so he wouldn't be able to get into his room without a ladder, and his window was instructed to stay locked by their father. And, all of this could have been avoided if he would get himself up in the morning's instead of waiting for his brother to wake him up. It's not Noah's responsibility to wake up his brother for school, it's their alarms. And last time Noah checked, he isn't a digital clock.  
   Noah gave in and opened the door and let his brother in.  
   
   
   
   She Cries When She's Sad 
    * Ayden's POV *:  
     
   If starting a fight with Noah was the only way that he could get Olivia back, then that is what he will do, that is what Ayden thought when he was sitting down at the lunch table, with Noah was all over Olivia. That made Ayden so mad and so hurt. He wanted nothing more but to keep punching him until he is nothing but a bloody pulp on the ground.  
    Ayden realied just how tall he was then, and how lean he was. Ayden still didn't care, just as long as he got his point across that he isn't going to let any man or women be around his girl like the way Noah has been. 
   Noah's been walking her to class and holding her hand, that's Ayden's job, or that's more what he thought was his job. All Ayden ever thinks about is being with Olivia. She's his sun and moon, his everything. They've been together for so long that he doesn't know what to do without her. And when she left him the first time, he was a wreck. His heart broke when she said those cuel words to him, but he deserved it, he knew he did, and he went and did it again a few months later, after they had gotten back together. He admits that what he did was wrong, he beats himself up for it every day, but yet, Ayden does nothing to change it.  
    But there Ayden is, right after the fight, getting arrested, and maybe even charged. Ayden knows that starting a fight with Noah isn't the greatest idea ever, but it's hard to just sit there and watch his only love life become destroyed. Too much time and effort went into that relationship, and he fucking it up, and he fucked it up again. Ayden knew what he did. Multiple time, actually. Some Olivia knew, some she didn't. Most were just online, quick little picture here and there, nothing really huge. At least, nothing he really thought was huge. He didn't feel anything for them, so that must not be cheating right? 
   Wrong. He didn't know that then, but he knows that know, a little too late.  
   He cut off all ties with all the other girls. Ayden told them that he wanted nothing to do with them and to move on. Of course, this was all before he was thrown to the ground my a huge man.  
   The police called Ayden's mother. He's going to have to hear about this for quite some time.  
   
   
   
   Je t'Aime 
    *Noah's POV* 
   
   
   
   Time and Dedication 
    *Olivia's POV* 
   
   
   
   Stuck 
    *Ayden's POV* 
   
   
   Publication Date: April 6th 2019 https://www.bookrix.com/-ij081aa621f21b5