text: Millimay skys Always and Forever About That Life 
   
   
   One-picture-Marissa 
   
   
   
   I woke sweaty and breathing fast.I looked to my right only to see myself laying motionlessly.It seemed I was uncontouis.I looked around the room.My best friend Sams was asleep holding my hand.I was hooked up to this machine and all these tubes.Did I die?Was I on life support?I was scared and felt alone.I called Sams name but he didn't budge.I sat on his lap and slapped him.I screamed out his name but he couldn't hear me.It was like I was invisible.I stood and tried to calm down.Everything seemed so loud around me but no one was talking.I sat on the ground and started crying.The door opened and a nurse walked in.She woke Sams.I wiped my face and listened to what they were saying. 
   "Between you and me her parents said just pull the plug.Her mother can't stand to see her like this and her father said she won't come back.Shes been like this for a week."She said. 
   Shes gunna pull it?I'm gunna die? 
   "Don't let them do it Sams."I said aloud. 
   "Well I still have faith in her.Just give it 3 more days."He said staring at my body in the bed. 
   I hugged him tight from behind but he didn't notice.The nurse nodded and left the room.I decided to roam the hospital.I needed to find me file and see what happened.I saw a man put some papers into a drawer.I opened it and in fact it was all the files.I looked for mine.A couple nurses were on their break. 
   "That poor kid.He hasn't left her side sence she came in."One nurse said. 
   "No that poor girl...Her parents want me to pull the plug on her."The nurse that was just in my room said. 
   "Well poor both of them."Another said. 
   They talked about grabbing a bite to eat and then left.Yeah....Poor girl...If they really knew how my parents really are.They hate me so of course they would want my to die.I found my file which said Marissa Monroe.I sat back in the rolly chair and opened it.It read Marissa Monroe was pronounced dead on the scene.My cause of death was drug over doise.I od?I tried to remember where I was.I was shocked back to life but was in acoma.Later in the hospital I was having trouble breathing so they put me on life support.I looked at the date.I've been here for a week and a half?I read on and put the peices together.My parents want me to die so the court will drop the charges.Oh my god...I slipped the file back into the drawer.I went back to my room.Sams was still holding my hand.He was talking to me. 
   "Marissa if you come out of this...What am I talking about of course you'll come back.You've always been strong."He said. 
   "Sams I would if I knew how.Help me..."I cried holding him. 
   I cried even more knowing he didn't see me or hear me.I had 3 days to figure out how to come back. 
   "I don't wanna die Sams."I cried. 
   "I miss you...I miss your voice.I miss taking care of you.I feel like somehow I'm failing right now.I've always been there to save you but now I can't..."He said. 
   He bowed his head and cried.The first time I ever saw him cry.Sams was strong and he never cried.He hurt but he didn't show it.I held him while he cried. 
   "I miss you too.I'm so scared."I cried. 
   He wipped his face and patted my hand.He stood and my hands went right through him.I looked at them and they flickered.I was fading fast.He walked over to the window and opened it.He pulled a fat blunt out of his pocket.He light it and looked back. 
   "This is for you Marissa."He said and took a big rip. 
   He let it out slowly.I stood beside him.I thought out of all the people who could have come,I only see Sams.Did my parents even come?Did My boyfriend Josh come? 
   "Yeah I'm sorry bought your boyfriend."He said. 
   I looked at him confused. 
   "He's probably gunna get word that you wake up and tell you a whole bunch of lies.And you'll probably believe him...After all we are in a fight."He said. 
   "I'm in a fight with Sams?"I asked. 
   "I should've grabbed you and held you hostage.I keep thinking if I held you back from that party you would still be here.Mad at me or not...I would still have you."He said taking another hit. 
   I ran a hand through my black hair.So I'm laying there lifeless because I over dosed and my best friend thinks its his fault.My boy friend didn't even bother to come see me and my parents want me dead.I'm not even sure if I want to come back.Tears ran down my face.I wanted to make things right with Sams.I couldn't just die without saying goodbye. 
   "Then don't."Someone said. 
   I jumped at the sound.I thought no one could hear me or see me. 
   "Who said that?"I asked looking around. 
   "Me."The voice said again. 
   I followed the voice to the chair by the bed.It was a girl with short dark hair. 
   "Who are you and how can you hear me?"I asked. 
   "I'm an angel...Well more like your guide.My name is Mandy."She smiled. 
   "Are you dead?"I asked. 
   She nodded. 
   "Am I?"I gulped. 
   "Not all the way but your fading fast."She said holding up my hand. 
   My hand flickered like before and I stepped away from her. 
   "What do you mean not all the way?"I questioned. 
   "Your spirt is out of your body but your still alive.Its hard to explain but I'm here to help you go back."She clapped. 
   "Well how do I do that?"I asked. 
   "You have to do one thing in order to come back."She said. 
   I nodded for her to go on. 
   "You have to change your ways if you go back."She said. 
   "Like not do drugs?"I asked. 
   She nodded. 
   "Okay I'll do it.I promise."I said. 
   "Good now you go and touch your body and close your eyes."She said. 
   I walked over to my body and touched it.I closed my eyes. 
   "Okay know what?"I asked. 
   "Count to three."She said. 
   I counted to three and opened my eyes.Everything was still the same.I turned to look at Mandy. 
   "It didn't work!"I said. 
   "Oh I forgot to tell you that it isn't your descion to go back.Its theirs."She said pointing up. 
   My face got hot.I felt like screaming. 
   "You lied!!!"I yelled. 
   "I did not."She said. 
   "Then why are you here?"I yelled. 
   "To guide you.If you don't want me here just tell me to go."She said. 
   "Just go then...."I said. 
   She nodded and disappeared. 
   "Mandy wait!!!"I called. 
   "How do I know if they made their desicon?"I called. 
   She was no where to be found.I punched the wall.I looked around for Sams.He was asleep in the chair.I had to get out of here.I ran out of the room and down the hall.I ran outside into the cold night.I ran to Joshs house.I walked in and went to his room.He wasn't there.I yelled out his name.I sat on his bed and cried.The door swung opened and I jumped up.It was Josh with another girl.He was making out with her.I ran out of the room.So many things were running through my head.I ran in the middle of the rode.A car was comeing and I just stood there.I closed my eyes and took a deep breath.It smacked into me hard.I didn't think I would feel it but it hurt so bad it smacked me back into the hospital room. 
   I flew up sweaty and breathing hard again.I started choaking.Sams was holding me. 
   "Its okay Marissa."He said making sure I didn't fall off the bed. 
   He yelled for a nurse.I looked around quickly trying to catch my breath.I noticed that I was in the hospital bed.I held Sams back and cried. 
   "I'm alive."I cried into his chest. 
   He rubbed my back and cried too.The nurse ran in.She made sure I was okay.She checked my eyes and took my temperture.She then took my blood pressure.Sams held my hand smileing the whole time.She said everything looks fine.She left the room to do something.Sams patted my hand. 
   "Everyone thought you were gone."He said trembling. 
   "I know but I'm here."I said. 
   "If you would have died....."He cut off. 
   He cried one tear.I cried too. 
   "I'm sorry Sams.I won't ever do drugs again.I promise."I said and hugged him. 
   He hugged me back.I was serious.I don't ever want to touch it again.The doctor came in with a police officer.They wanted to ask me questioned.Sams left the room. 
   "How you doing today Miss Monroe?"The cop asked. 
   I nodded. 
   "Okay I'm gunna ask you some questions and you tell me what you can remember."He nodded. 
   I nodded. 
   "Have you token any kind of drugs before?"He asked. 
   I nodded. 
   "What kind?"He asked. 
   "Just weed."I lied. 
   It was the only thing that would show that I could think of.He wrote it down. 
   "So how did you over dose?Did you take it willingly?"He asked. 
   I shook my head. 
   "You think someone drugged you?"He asked. 
   I nodded. 
   He wrote that down. 
   "Any problems at home?"He asked. 
   I shook my head. 
   "You know weed is illegal right?"He asked. 
   I nodded. 
   "Okay I'll tell you what Marissa...I'm gunna give you some drug classes and put you on probation until you graduate the drug classes.Sound good?"He said. 
   I nodded quickly. 
   "Okay I think we are done here."He smiled and handed me a card with the number to the drug classes on it. 
   "Call that in about a week and everything should be already set up for you."He said and then left. 
   It was my first time getting into trouble with the cops.I think he gave me the drug classes because of that.Sams came back in. 
   "So according to your file,you should be able to leave tomorrow morning."The doctor said. 
   I nodded and he left.Sams sat next to me. 
   "Get me out of here."I whispered to Sams. 
   "Marissa you have to stay here."He said. 
   "Help me get out of here or you know I will do it myself."I said. 
   He let out some breath and then stood up. 
   "Okay whats the plan?"He asked. 
   "You stall the nurses and I make a run for it."I said. 
   He rolled his eyes and left the room.I got up slowly and peeked out the door.He was talking to them making them laugh.I saw his tell me to go.I walked out slowly.These girls were so into Sams they didn't even see me.I walked out the doors and waited for Sams.He appeared and we got into his car. 
   "I need a change of clothes."I said realizing I was still in the hospital gown. 
   "I got you.Don't trip."He said. 
   He drove to his house.I was wondering why he took us here.I needed clothes. 
   "Sams I need some clothes."I said. 
   "I have some here for you."He said helping me out of the car. 
   "I'm not wear your clothes.I'm to tiny for them."I said. 
   "No I have a pair of your clothes here from 3 nights ago.You were so drunk you just started stripping and then fell asleep naked."He laughed. 
   "Oh so thats why I woke up naked in your bed."I said as we went inside. 
   He laughed and we went up to his room. 
   "Do you have a towel I can use.I wanna take a shower."I said. 
   "Yeah go wash all the hospital off of you."He said handing me a towel. 
   I took a shower and dried off.I put my underwear on and there was a knock on the door. 
   "What?"I asked. 
   "I have to pee."He said. 
   "Hold on let me put my bra on."I said. 
   "Just open the door.Its not like I haven't seen you naked before."He said. 
   I put my bra on and unlocked the door.He came in. 
   "Finally."He said and wipped it out. 
   "Well sorry.I have to clean myself."I said putting my shirt and bottoms on. 
   He finished peeing.I threw my black hair up into a messy bun. 
   "Can you take me to Joshs?"I asked. 
   "Why?"He asked. 
   "Just take me."I said. 
   He nodded and he took me to Joshs.I knocked on the door.There was no answer.I knocked again and heard laughing.The door opened and there he was with another girl.I simply smiled.The look on his face...It was like he just seen a ghost. 
   "Damn he got you good."I said. 
   There was a huge red bump on his head. 
   "Anyways Its over Joshua and I'm not even gunna bother beating your bitches ass right now.Maybe another time."I smiled and turned around. 
   The girls mouth fell open. 
   "Marissa wait!"He yelled. 
   I kept walking.I jumped in Sams car. 
   "Where to now?"Sams asked. 
   "Lets go to a kick back."I said. 
   He stared at me. 
   "I'm not gunna do drugs shit."I said. 
   "Okay I don't have a problem if you do."He said. 
   I rolled my eyes. 
   He drove to a white little house.There were beer bottles in the flower pots.I got out. 
   "This is James place remember?"He asked. 
   "Uh Mondays party?"I asked. 
   He nodded. 
   We walked in.The house was hot boxed.I left the door open. 
   "Oh my god she lives."James said giving me a hug. 
   I sat down next to him.Sams went to go smoke in the other room.James hit the bong and passed it to me. 
   "Uh nah I don't smoke anymore."I said. 
   "What?"He said with wide eyes. 
   I laughed. 
   "You got to be kidding me."He said. 
   "Nope I'm serious."I said. 
   "Wow."He said. 
   "Yeah I'm gunna go find Samuel."I said getting up. 
   He was making out with some blonde. 
   "Sams."I said. 
   He looked at me.He walked over to me and we went outside. 
   "Whats wrong?"He asked. 
   "I just....Can you take me home."I said. 
   "Really?"He asked. 
   I nodded. 
   "Marissa we can chill at my place.You don't have to go home."He said. 
   "No I want to go home."I said. 
   "Okay."He said. 
   We got in his car and he took me home.I said bye and walked to the front door.I turned the nob and it broke.I pushed it open and walked in. 
   "The doors broken."I called. 
   "Everythings broken in this house."My mom said. 
   I turned the corner and she was sitting at the table alone.She was smoking a cigarette and holding a piece of paper. 
   "So I'm alive."I said. 
   "Appearately."She said. 
   "Whats that?"I asked as I looked in the fridge for something to drink. 
   I closed it after I noticed there was nothing but alcohol.She threw the piece of paper across the table.I picked it up and read some of it. 
   "What the hell is this?"I asked. 
   "Its a court order you dumbass."She said. 
   "I know that but what for?Whose John Carter?"I asked. 
   "John Carter is a guy I slept with and had you."She said flicking her cigarette ash onto the floor. 
   "Mom....Your meaning to tell me that dad isn't my real dad?"I asked. 
   She nodded. 
   "Why didn't you tell me this!"I asked angerly. 
   "Well I was mad at him so I used you to get back at him.He wanted you but I never let him have you.Well that is until now."She said taking another hit of her cigarette. 
   "What do you mean until now?Is he trying to take me?"I asked. 
   "No you dip shit.He wants vistation rights.But he could take you cause I don't have full custidy."She said. 
   "I'm going to bed."I said. 
   I walked up the stairs and to my room.I layed on my bed that was broken.I didn't want to do drugs anymore.I wanted a mom who cared that I could've died.I closed my eyes and fell asleep. 
     
     
     
     
   
   
   
   
   
   
   
   Two-picture-Sams 
   
   
   
   I was hit with a pillow. 
   "What the fuck!"I yelled. 
   "Your real dad is comeing in an hour and an half."My mom said. 
   "Hes coming here?"I asked. 
   "Yeah I'm going out so make sure he doesn't steal anything."She said and left. 
   "Like we have anything to steal."I said under my breath. 
   I straightened my hair and put my makeup on.I texted Sams to come over while this guy was here just incase he was a creep.I suddently remembered the house was a mess.I sweeped the floors and cleaned the coners off.I wipped them down and straightened up the living room.I vacumed the floors and there was a knock on my door.I put the vacum up and opened the door. 
   "Caitlin?"He asked. 
   I rolled my eyes.I hated it when people said I looked just like my mom when she was younger. 
   "No I'm Marissa."I said. 
   "Oh gosh I'm sorry.I was wondering why you looked so young."He laughed. 
   "You must be John."I said. 
   "Yeah and your my daughter.Wow."He said. 
   "Would you like to come in?"I asked. 
   "Oh yes thank you."He said walking in. 
   He looked around. 
   "Yeah sorry about the mess.I tried to clean up.Would you like something to drink?"I said. 
   He followed me into the kitchen. 
   "We have jack,beer,and whiskey."I said. 
   "Uh I'm good."He smiled. 
   We sat down in the living room.He stared at me for a moment. 
   "So how old are you?"He asked. 
   "I'm 17."I said. 
   "17 years and I don't even know a thing about you."He said. 
   "Yeah my moms a bitch like that."I said. 
   He laughed.There was a knock on the door. 
   "Oh I invited my friend Sam over.I hope you don't mind."I said. 
   "Not at all."He said. 
   I got up and opened the door. 
   "Sorry I wish I could have been here faster but I kinda got stuck."He laughed. 
   "Hes here."I whispered. 
   "Oh now?"He whispered. 
   I nodded.We walked into the living room and sat down. 
   "Sam this is John my blood dad."I said. 
   Sams shook his hand. 
   "So your the boyfriend?"John asked. 
   "Uh no the best friend."Sams said. 
   "Oh gotcha."John said. 
   "So where do you live?"I asked. 
   "Oh I live 4 hours away from here."He said. 
   "You drove 4 hours just to meet me?"I asked. 
   "Marissa don't be rude."Sams said. 
   I shot him a look. 
   "No its okay.Yeah I did.I've been wanting to meet you sence you were born but your mother wouldn't let me."He said. 
   I nodded. 
   "So you guys hungry?"He asked. 
   Sams nodded and I shook my head. 
   John laughed. 
   "So wheres the best place to eat around here?"He asked. 
   "We only have taco bell.Thats the best."Sams laughed. 
   "Taco bell it is then."John said. 
   We got in his truck and drove to taco bell.He ordered our food and we ate.He asked me questions through out the whole day.I didn't have a problem with it.I kinda liked the guy.I felt kinda loved.He took us back to my house. 
   "So I gotta get going.Its almost 9 and I've got work in the morning.I'm so thankful to have met you today Marissa."He smiled. 
   "It was great meeting you."I said. 
   He hugged me and I hugged him back.He shook Sams hand. 
   "See you soon Pumkin.Take care of my daughter for me."He said. 
   "Always."Sams said. 
   "I love you Pumkin."John said and left. 
   "Pumkin thats cute."Sams said. 
   I laughed.We went inside. 
   "So where's moms?"He asked. 
   "Shes out doing god knows what.Petes at the bar."I said. 
   He grabbed the bottle of jack. 
   "Drink with me."He said. 
   I shook my head. 
   He rolled his eyes and drank it.He threw the bottle away. 
   "Can I crash here?"He asked. 
   I nodded. 
   "Good cause I'm drunk."He said dropping himself on the couch. 
   I laughed and sat down next to him.He put his head on my lap and I played with his blonde hair.He told me how he fucked this girl the other night. 
   "Dude your gunna put my ass to bed if you keep playing with my hair."He said sitting up. 
   I stopped playing with it. 
   "Here trace my tattoos."He said. 
   I traced them.I don't know why but every sence I met him I always traced his tattoos and flicked his plugs. 
   "Marissa do you have weed?"He asked. 
   "I might..."I said and went to my room. 
   He followed me.I looked through my dresser.He grabbed my hips. 
   I laughed. 
   "Damn how many times have I told you that you have nice hips."He bit his lip. 
   "Almost everytime we are high."I said still looking for the weed. 
   I found it and gave it to him. 
   "I love you so much."He said slapping my ass. 
   I slapped his ass as he walked.He put the weed in his pipe and lit it.He blew it out. 
   "Can you blow it that way.I don't want to smell it."I said. 
   "Your serious about this."He said. 
   I nodded. 
   "Marissa this is what brought us together."He said. 
   "What are you tryna say?That you won't be my friend anymore if I don't do drugs?"I asked. 
   "Hell no!I would be your friend if you were a bible humper."He said taking another hit. 
   "Okay thats what I thought."I said. 
   "You look cute today."He smiled. 
   "Thanks and your cross faded."I laughed. 
   "Yeah I am.I love it when you wear that red lipstick."He said putting his finger to my lips. 
   I pushed his hand away playfully. 
   "But you know what I love even more is when you don't wear makeup."He smiled. 
   "Your to sweet."I kissed him on the cheek. 
   He finished the bowl and layed on my lap.I turned on the tv.He was out as soon as a comertial came on.Surprisingly I wasn't craving weed or any pills.I felt normal.I'm sticking to this plan.I slowly fell asleep. 
   
   
   
   Three- 
   
   
   
   I woke to the smell of beer roaming through the entire house.Sams was gone.I got up and walk down the hall stepping over my mother.She was passed out on the floor. 
   "Morning."My dad said. 
   Or was he my step dad or...I don't know. 
   "Morning."I said and walked to my room. 
   I washed my face and put my hair up into a bun.I walked back to the kitchen where Sams was talking to my step dad.They were talking about the person who got murdered last week.My step dad was really a great guy when he was sober.He was kind and caring.When he drinks he gets abusive and loud.He beats my mother and doesn't even know. 
   "Just keep my Mary save out there in those streets."My step father said. 
   "No ones gunna harm Marissa when I'm around."Sams said wrapping an arm around me. 
   "Well I wanna take Marissa to get some breakfast."Sams said. 
   My step dad nodded.I put my shoes on and we left.We got something to eat and went to his house. 
   
   
   Publication Date: March 3rd 2014 https://www.bookrix.com/-aj362face961925