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   1. My Past 
   
   
   2. My present 
   
   
   3. My future 
   
   
   Conclusion 
   
   
   
   SATHYANARAYANAN K 
   My Memories 
   
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   1 
   My Past 
   
   
   The day I saw you last became a distant memory. The prospect of seeing you became a nightmare. I can’t understand my own feelings let alone explain to anyone. The days are bearable, alas nights are forcing me live to see another day without her. I can’t forget her or give up my new found love on some other person. What could I do, when I can’t tell my feelings. I can’t tell my family or even my best friend, that the girl i loved called me her big brother and hurt my feelings. I don’t blame anyone but fate for my ordeals. I can’t see an ending to this ordeal. The nights are getting harsher and more lonely. I can only sleep late in the night. I keep telling myself I can live without her that I will forget her soon, alas it never seems to happen. My only solace is my new found love with a princess of love. She may not know my existence , but she will never hate me.  
     I know life is sometimes harsh, it is how we handle our self that defines us. Someday I may get over her or some other event may happen which I can’t imagine, but I hope for peace of mind someday, never to worry about my past. 
   
   
   2 
   My present 
   
   
   I have began to imagine a future without my old love, but I can’t imagine a future without my new found Love Keerthana. I don’t wish something to happen differently , but i wish it was different with my old love. i wish we had parted ways in more friendlier terms. The arguments and fight made the relationship sour . After all i never wanted to give up on her. i imagined a ever lasting life with my old love. i thought if i propose to her , she would accept my proposal and we could be together forever. Alas i never expected her to think of me as her brother. The memories are sometimes a curse, while forgetting such memories can be a blessing. I am blessed not to remember the details in our breakup, but cursed enough to remember i will have to live a life even without her friendship.  
    My new found love is a wonderful personality and way out of my league. One day i hope to be in her league and marry her. I never wanted anything from her, except her to be happy and smiling. I have become her fan , as she give life to the characters she acts in the movies. I never lover for being a film personality but for being a wonder human. I fall in love with her volunteering services and humble nature. I hope someday i will live with her or in her memories happily forever 
   
   
   3 
   My future 
   
   
   The future is not bleak, for my new found love has given my hope and a reason to live my life happily. i pray to god that she may not hate me as my old love. For i breath and live for her every second. Keerthana , the name that has given my Million of reasons to live and love all not hate anyone. I have adapted the Motto “Love for all, Hatred for None”. I wish to implement it in my Daily life 
   
   
   4 
   Conclusion 
   
   
   My feelings about my old love are so bundled up in my heart,i don’t know if i can take it any longer without vetting it out through some form. I am writing it to clear my mind about my old love and to express my love for my new found love Keerthana. 
   
   Publication Date: June 2nd 2020 https://www.bookrix.com/-dd506b7c0b56de5