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   Travis 
   “SEC. 1 TRAVIS”  FIRST TIMES WITH TRAVIS  FIRST TIME WE KISSED- WAS AFTER SKOOL WHEN WE WERE JUST STANDING THERE AND HE WAS HOLDING MY HAND AND HAD THE OTHER ON MY CHEEK.  WHEN- WAS AFTER SKOOL WHEN WE WERE JUST STANDING THERE AND HE WAS HOLDING MY HAND AND HAD THE OTHER ON MY CHEEK.  DATE-MARCH 2,2012  WHEN- AFTER SKOOL  MONTH-MARCH  DAY-2ND  YEAR-2012  FIRST TIME WE HELD HANDS-WAS WHEN WE STAYED AFTER SKOOL AND MY FUCKEN SIS WOULDN'T STOP LAUGHING AND WHEN HE DIDN'T WONT ME TO LEAVE  WHEN-AFTER SKOOL WHEN WE STAYED AND MY SIS WOULDN'T STOP LAUGHING  DATE- JAN. 26,2012  WHEN- WHEN AFTER SKOOL WHEN WE STAYED AND MY SIS WOULDN'T STOP LAUGHING  MONTH- JANUARY  DAY- 26TH  YEAR- 2012  FIRST TIME I RELUZED I REALLY NEED TRAVIS-WHEN IT FELT LIKE DANIEL WAS IGNORING ME ALL DAY ,AND THE ONLY PERSON I COULD TALK TO WAS TRAVIS AND I REALLY NEEDED TO SEE HIM, AND WHEN I ALMOST LEFT DANIEL BUT BOBBY GOT ME NOT TO.  WHEN-WHEN IT FELT LIKE DANIEL WAS IGNORING ME ALL DAY ,AND THE ONLY PERSON I COULD TALK TO WAS TRAVIS AND I REALLY NEEDED TO SEE HIM, AND WHEN I ALMOST LEFT DANIEL BUT BOBBY GOT ME NOT TO.  DATE-MARCH  WHEN- WHEN IT FELT LIKE DANIEL WAS IGNORING ME ALL DAY ,AND IN LAST HOUR.  MONTH- MARCH  DAY- 16TH  YEAR- 2012  HOW LONG WE DATED=47 DAYS TOGETHER 1 MONTH AND 23 DAYS  I mean I want to be with Travis. But I'm with Daniel and I LOVE him. So I'm not gonna break up with him for Travis. I mean I love Bobby (like a brother) but I'm with Daniel and I love him. And TJ I'm never gonna go back out with him. So hit me up if u liked book. Tell me what u thought about it. Thanks for reading my book. 
   
   
   
   Tj 
    “SEC. 2 TJ”  TJ HELD MY HAND TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!   OMG. TODAY ME AND TJ HELD HANDS FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER.AND HIS HANDS WERE COLD.BUT IT FELT WEIRED HOLDING A GUYS HAND AGAIN.AND HE TOLD ME “HE LOVES ME” LIKE 20 OR 30 TIMES TODAY.BUT I DONT CARE BE CAUSE “I LOVE HIM TO”.AND TODAY I ALMOST SLAPED SELIN BECAUSE RIGHT AWAY WHEN SHE SAW ME AND TJ HOLDING HANDS IN THE HALL.SOON AS I GOT TO PE SHE SAID “CAN I ASK U SOMETHING” AND I SAID “YES”.THEN SHE SAID “R U GOING OUT WITH TJ.”AND IM LIKE “YES” Y ELSE WOULD I BE HOLDING HIS HAND.(I LOVE HIM MORE THEN ANYTHING IN THE WORLD (I THOU;GHT))HE MEANS THE WORLD TO ME.I WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR HIM.BUT YESTERDAY I ASKED HIM IF HE WAS CHEATING ON ME AND IF HE WAS TO SCARED TO HOLD MY HAND AND IF HE COULD STOP HUGING OTHER GIRLS THEN ME. AND THIS MORNING HE TAPED ME AND ASKED IF HE COULD TALK TO ME AND I SAID YES.AND HE SAID “IM NOT CHEATING ON U.......AND IM NOT CHICKEN TO HOLD UR HAND......AND I'LL STOP HUGING OTHER GIRLS............ AND YES I DO LOVE U OK.”AND OF CORSE I SAID “K.”AND THEN RIGHT AWAY HE GRABES MY HAND. SO EVERYONE COULD SEE.OH AND HE HUGED ME LIKE 10 OR 20 TIMES ALL DAY. AND WE SAT ARM TO ARM ALL DAY IT WAS NICE.BUT IT WAS FUNNY BECAUSE POSEYS SAID “FUCK U TJ U STOLL MY GIRLFRIEND.”AND OMG I COULDN'T STOP LAUGHING.......OH AND TJ PUT HIS ARM AROUND ME THIS MORNING TO. WHEN WE WERE GOING IN THE BUILDING AND SINCE MY HAIR WAS IN MY FACE HE ASKED ME IF I WAS BLUSHING.AND I SAID “PLEASE DONT START WITH THAT.” OH AND I WORE TJS HAT AFTER SCHOOL.AND HE WASN'T EVEN THERE (HE WENT TO MASA). AND THATS THAT FOR TODAY.HE MEANS THE WORLD TO ME.I LOVE HIM MORE THEN ANYTHING IN THE WORLD.  PSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS,I WILL 4-EVER LOVE TJ. 4-EVER N EVER NO MATTER WUT.I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT. AND REMEMBER THAT HE WILL ALWAYS LOVE ME TO NO MATTER WUT.   WHOLE DATE: 9/16/11  TIME WRITEN:5:37 PM  MONTH:SEPTEMBER   DAY:16TH  YEAR:2011   AND WE STARTED TO DATE:WENSDAY THE 15TH   WE LOVE EACHOTHER MORE THEN ANYTHING IN THE WORLD:) :) :) :) :) I LOVE HIM.  HELD HAND AGAIN IT WAS FUNNY  OMG.TODAY ME AND TJ HELD HANDS AGAIN.BUT THIS TIME NONE OF US WALKED AWAY SO WE HELD HANDS ALMOST THE WHOLE DAY.IT WAS SO MUCH FUN.I LOVE(ED) HIM SO MUCH.IT WAS FUNNY BECAUSE WE PLAYED TRUTH OR DARE.AND WE DARED BOBBY TO HUG MY SISTER AND HE DID.THEN TJ GOT DARED TO KISS ME AND THEN BOBBY GOT DARED TO KISS MY SISTER TOO.BUT OFCORSE WE DIDNT.BECAUSE I DONT WONT MINE AND TJS FIRST KISS TO BE DURING TRUTH OR DARE.AND TO DAY HE HUGED ME 4 OR 9 TIMES.AND I HUGED HIM BACK .IT WAS 1 OF THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE.OH AND DURING TRUTH OR DARE.WELL BEFOR I WAS CLOSE TO SLAPING SHIAN.BECAUSE SHE WAS TALKING CRAP TO TJ.SO CLOSE.BUT TRAVIS WOULDN'T LET ME.I WAS SO ABOUT TO .BUT TJ WOULDN'T LET ME.SO I COULDN'T.BUT STILL WE PLAYED TRUTH OR DARE.AND IM HAPPY JUST BECAUSE TJ ACSHALY WONTED TO PLAY.BUT THEN SO DID I.AND TRUTH OR DARE WAS FUN.AND THATS THAT.  WHOLOE DATE:9/20/2011  TIME WRITEN:5:00  MONTH:SEPTEMBER  YEAR:2011  DAY:19TH  PSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS,I WISH HE WOULD JUST KISS ME ALRETY.I REALLY WONT HIM TO TOUGH.I WONT HIM TO MORE THEN ANYTHING IN THE WORLD.  STARING PROBLOM   OMG TODAY TJ WAS WAITIMG FOR ME IN THE FRONT .AND AS I SAID HE ALWAYS GRABES MY HAND.AND WHEN WE WERE WALKING IN TO THE BILDING LANCE N HIS GIRLFRIEND WERE STARING.AND IM LIKE TAKE A PIC IT'LL LAST LONGER.BUT IF I WOULD OF I WOULDVE HAD TO KICK HER ASS.AND I REALLY DIDNT WONT TO.BUT I LOVE THE FACT THAT HE ALWAYS HOLDS MY HAND NO MATTER WUT.AND TODAY WE WERE PLAYING 20?'S AND HULTS GF CAME OVER THERE AND TOALY ROED IT.BUT THEN MY SISTER AND BOBBY HELD HANDS.AND SHE WAS ALL R U GUYS GOING OUT.AND IM LIKE STATING THE OFES MUCH MORON.AND BOBBYS ALL NO WE'RE JUST HOLDING HANDS CAUSE WERE FRIENDS.THEN IM LIKE NO FUCKEN DUU THIER GOING OUT.THEN TJ AND BOBBY RAN AROUND THE GUM AND BY THE TIME THEY CAME BACK SHE HAD LEFT.(THANK GOD) THEN I FINALY GOT TJ TO TAKE OFF HIS JACKET.I WAS SO HAPPY.I LOVE THE WAY BETWEEN EVER CLASS HE HOLDS MY HAND.AND AT THE END OF THE DAY TRAVIS TOLD TJ TO KISS ME.I THINK HE WAS GOING TO BUT STUPID EMILIO WENT OVER THERE AND HES ALL I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO GET A LILTTLE SOMETHING SOMETHING BUT UR CUSIN CAME OVER HERE.(LOL)AND I COULDNT HELP BUT BLUSH. IT WAS SO FUNNY.WE WERE ALMOST CHEST TO CHEST WHEN HE SAID THAT.(LOL)MY FACE WAS SO RED THOUGH.AFTER I COULDNT HELP BUT LAUGH.THEN WE WERE GOING TO GET ON R BUS AND DIONA PUSHED ME.AND I SO AM NOT GOING TO TAKE ANY OF HER SHIT.AND SO I PUSHED HER LIL PUPPY DOG ALEXIS AND SHES ALL WUT THE HELL U SICK BITCH.AND IM LIKE PUT THAT DICK AWAY I DONT WANNA GET RAPED.THEN IM ALL LIKE ATLEST I DONT HAVE LIKE 10 OR 17 PREGNESE TEST IN MY BAG.(I SAID THAT TO DIONNA).IM NOT GOING TO TAKE ANY SHIT THIS YEAR SO THEY JUST BETTER MOVE OUT OF MY WAY BECAUSE I RULED THE ELIMENTRY AND NOW IN GOING TO RULE THE HIGH SCHOOL NO MATTER WUT ANYONE SAYS!!!!!!!!!SO MOVE THE FUCK OUT OF MY WAY AND MAKE SOME ROOM FOR THE FOR THE QUEEN OF THE SCHOOL.AND NOW ID LIKE TO SEE ANYBODY TRY TO TAKE IT FROM ME.   WHOLE DATE:9/21/2011  TIME:8:12  MONTH:SEPTEMBER  YEAR:2011  DAY:21TH  PSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS, I LOVE HIM AND I REALLY WONT HIM TO KISS ME SO BAD.I HOPE HE DOSE TOMORROW(SWEALS N LOL) (THOUGH I WONDER IF HES GOING TO THOUGH TOMORROW)   TJ KISSED ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  OOOOMMMGGGG.TJ KISSED ME.LET ME START FROM THE BEING.OK WE WENT BEHIND THE SCHOOL LIKE WE ALWAYS DO.AND I GOT ON MY COMPUTER.TO SHOW TJ MY NEW PIC'S.AND ONES AGAIN HE SAT ARM TO ARM WITH ME.IT WAS FUNNY BECAUSE N LIKE ALWAYS TJ N BOBBY WERE THROING ROCKS. AND THEN WE WERE TALKING AND I ACSATENLY STUDERED.AND THEN BOBBY WAS CALLING ME STUDER AND MAKING ME STUDER.THEN TJ WAS TO.AND IM LIKE “U GUYS R MEAN”.THEN TJ COMES AND HUGS ME AND SAYS “IM SORRY IM SORRY”.THEN OFCORSE HE SITS NEXT TO ME AND GRABES MY HAND. SO WE'RE HOLDING HAND.THEN WE JUST SAT THERE WHATCHING THEM THROW ROCKS AT EACHOTHER.THEN TJ ASKED WUT TIME IT WAS AND IT WAS BOUT12:50 SO WE WERE PACKING UP.AND BOBBY SAID SHOULD WE START HEDING OUT.AND TJ'S ALL WE'LL START HEDING OUT AFTER I DO THIS AND IM STANDING AGENST THE WALL WITH MY HEAD DOWN AND HE PUT HIS HEAD IN THERE AND KISS'S ME.AND OFCORSE I KISSED HIM BACK.THEN HE SAID U NOW HOWS WARING MY JURSY TOMORROW AND IM LIKE ME HE SAID YES.THEN WE WENT BACK AND HE WALKED ME TO MUSIC AND S.S AND KISSED ME ON MY CHEEK.THEN HE SAT BEHIND ME AND PUT HIS ARMS AROUND ME.AND WHEN HE LEFT HE HUGED ME BUT I DIDNT I LET HIM KISS ME THATS THAT.   WHOLE DATE:9/21/2011  - TIME:4:07-MONTH:SEPTEMBER-YEAR:2011DAY:21ST.PSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS, OMG THE KISS WAS FIREWORKS.BUT   I DIDNT TELL ANYONE THAT CAUSE I LOVE HIM SO MUCH...............  TODAY I WORE TJ'S JURSEY   WELL TO DAY NOTHING HAPPENED CAUSE THEY HAD A GAME.AND I DIDNT EVEN GET TO WARE TJS JURSY.CAUSE I DIDNT WONT HIM TO GET IN TRUBLE.BUT STILL AT LEAST I GOT TO HOLD HIS HAND.AND I LOVE HIM SO MUCH SO I DIDNT CARE. IF I DIDNT GET TO WARE HIS JURSY. REALLY I DONT GIVE A DAME .IM JUST HAPPY THAT I COULD GET A GUY LIKE TJ.A GUY THAT REALLY LIKES ME.THATS NOT JUST USING ME. AND I NOW TJ REALLY LOVES ME.HE'S THE FIRST GUY THATS NOT DATING ME JUST TO USE ME.SO THATS ALL THAT REALLY HAPPENED.ALL I CAN SAY IS THAT I HOPE HE CAN COME DOWN TOMORROW.SO WE CAN PLAY SPIN THE BOTTLE.I WONT HIM TO KISS ME AGAIN.  WHOLE DATE:9/22/2011  TIME:7:08  MONTH:SEPTEMBER  YEAR:2011  DAY:22ND  PSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS,AND I WILL KISS HIM.AND HOLD HIS HAND.AND HUG HIM.NO MATTER WUT SO I REALLY HOPE HE COULD COME DOWN.  STUPID BITCH  WELL TO DAY THEY DIDNT HAV A GAME AT LEAST.BUT TJ WAITED IN THE FRONT FOR ME AGAIN.OMFG TODAY WE WENT IN SIDE N DIONNA WENT OVER THERE N CALLED PETER LIKE HE WAS HER PUPPY DOG.I WAS SO BOUT TO SLAP HER.OMG WE WERE SLAPING EACHOTHRS ARMS CAUSE WE GOT R FLU SHOT YESTERDAY.AND BOBBY KEPT SLAPING MY ARM.N I WAS BOUT TO SLAP HIM.BUT I DIDNT.THEN THE BELL RANG.N TJ WALKED ME TO CLASS.N AFTER CLASS HE DIDNT SEE ME SO HE WALKED RIGHT BY ME.THEN HE WALKED ME TO CLASS AGAIN.N WE EMAILED EACHOTHER TILL I HAD TO TAKE MY TEST SO I HAD TO GO.BUT THEN AFTER HE STAIED WITH ME TILL I HAD TO GO TO PE.WE PLAYED VOLLYBALL.THEN WENT TO MATH.THEN WENT TO LUNCH .N WENT BEHIND THE SCHOOL.AND I GOT ON MY COMPUTER RIGHT AWAY THEN I PUT MY HEAD PHONES ON AND TJ WAS EMAILING ME AN WAS BUGING ME BOUT BEING MAD I DIDNT TELL HIM THAT I WAS MAD THEN HAV HIM KEEP BUGING ME IM SORRY BUT I WOULD HAV SLAPED HIM SO THEN WE LEFT AND WAS ALMOST LATE AND OMG SANTANA SAW ME HOLDING TJ HAND N I SO THOUGHT SHE WAS GOING TO TELL CEASER BUT SHE DIDNT SO I GOT REALLY LUCKY OMG HE STAID WITH ME TILL MY BUS CAME THEN HE HAD TO LEVE AND I WOULDNT LET HIM GIVE ME A HUG THEN I DID.SO THATS THAT.  WHOLE DATE:9/23/2011  TIME:  MONTH:SEPTEMBER  YEAR:2011  DAY:23RD  PSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS,I WONT HIM TO KISS ME BUT HE ALMOST HAS.HE WAS SUPOSTO TO DAY BUT I DIDNT LET HIM.OMG I REALLY WONT HIM TO KISS ME AGAIN.THATS Y I WONTED HIM TO COME DOWN BUT HE HAS PRACTIC TODAY N A GAME TOMORROW.SO WE HAV TO RESCEDUAL.WELL THATS THAT.I LOVE HIM MORE THEN ANY THING IN THE WORLD   LATE  WELL NOTHING REALLY HAPENED TO DAY CAUSE WE WERE LATE.N ANFTER THAT I COULDNT LOOK AT TJ CAUSE WUT HE WAS WARING.IT WAS SO FUNNY.THEN LIKE ALWAYS WE EMAILED IN 2ND HOUR.THEN AT LUNCH WE WERE EMAILING EACHOTHER.N I TOLD HIM HES NOT A BAD BOYFREIND.AND I TOLD HIM I LOVED HIM LIKE 20 OR 30 TIMES.AND THE EXACT SAME LIKE ANYOTHER DAY.EXEPED HE DIDNT KISS ME.OMG I FREAKED OUT ON HIM YESTERDAY.DUDE I ALMOST DEACET HIM BUT I DIDNT.SO THATS THAT FOR TODAY.  WHOLE DATE:9/27/21011  TIME:4:42  MONTH:SEPTEMBER  YEAR:2011  DAY:26TH  PSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS,I LOVE HIM MORE THEN ANYTHING IN THE WORLD.AND I WILL CONTINUE TO LOVE HIM EVEN WHEN WE SPLIT UP.I WILL ALWAYS LOVE HIM NO MATTER WUT.  NEVER PLAYING TRUTH OR DARE AGAIN WITH TRAVIS AGAIN  WELL TODAY NOTHING REALLY HAPPENED.WELL NOTHING NEW EXCEOED THE FACT THAT AT LUNCH WE WERE PLAYING TRUTH OR DARE AGAIN.AND WELL IT WENT ALL DOWN HILL.CAUSE TRAVIS STARED GETTING PURSANAL.HE STARTED TALKING BOUT LAST YEAR.AND AS ALWAYS I TRY TO FORGET THE PAST.I FOR GOT BOUT DANIEL.N MY SISTER HAD TO GET PURSANAL WITH HIM TO.SO I DARED HIM TO KISS HER BUT THEN BOBBY CAME.N THEN IT GOT ALL WEIRD.N BOBBY WAS SO PISSED AT TRAVIS CAUSE TRYED TO KISS HIS GIRL.THEN TRAVIS HAD THE NEARVE TO SAY THAT ME N BOBBY WERE LEAVING HIM HANGING.N THEN I TOLD HIM “ NOW U NOW HOW WE FELT LAST YEAR “.N HE SAID “NO U LEFT ME HANGING WHEN U STARTED LEAVING ME HANGING WHEN U STARED TO DATE THET LITTLE FAG JJ”.THEN I JUST WALKED AWAY N WE LEFT.N TJ WOULD NOT LET GO OF MY HAND.LIKE I MEAN HE REALLY WOULDN'T LET MY HAND.WELL I THINK HE GOT MAD WHEN I HAD TO GO TO CLASS.THEN HE HAD TO GO TO HIS STUPID FUCKEN GAME.BUT WHEN HE CAME TO GET HIS STUFF HE GAVE MRS.ADAMS A HUG THEN LIKE NOTHING HE GIVES ME A HUG N SAYS BYE.THEN HE CAME BACK N GAVE ME MY LAI.WELL HE SAID HEAR CLARISSA N PUT MY LAI ON MY LABTOP.THATS THAT FOR TODAY.N AT THE END OF THE DAY I EMAILED HIM N ASKED HIM TO PAY MORE ATTENTION TO ME.N ASKED HIM TO STOP MESSING AROUND WITH TRAVIS.CAUSE IT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE WE'RE NOT EVEN GOING OUT.  WHOLE DATE:9/29/2011  TIME:MONTH:SEPTEMBER  YEAR:2011  DAY:27TH  PSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS,  SAME SAME I'D DO ANYTHING FOR HIM.NO MATTER WUT IT IS I DONT CARE.  MY FIRST HOMECOMING GAME WITH TJ  TODAY IS HOMECOMING N ITS MY FIRST GAME WITH TJ.N IM SO HAPPY.CAUSE I GET TO SEE HIM OUT SIDE SCHOOL.AND IM SO HAPPY CAUSE IT WAS OUR FIRST GAME TOGETHER.OK FIRST WAS THE PORAD TJ N BOBBY WERE IN IT.N I SAW TJ HE HAD HIS STUPID HUGE SMILE.IT WAS FUNNY.THEN WE WENT TO THE GAME N RIGHT AWAY WE WENT TO THE GRASS.N JOSEPH WAS ALRETY STARTING SHIT WITH ME.AND AFTER WE WERE JUST MESSING AROUND.THEN BOBBY STARTED TO INGNOR MY SISTER N SHE GOT LIKE REALLY PISSED AT HIM.THEN I TOLD HIM TO KISS HER.N AT FIRST SHE WOULDNT LET HIM.THEN HE JUST KISSED HER N TJ TRYED TO KISS ME TO BUT I WOULDNT LET HIM.THEN WE JUST STUD AT THE FENCE N ME N TJ WERE POKING EACH OTHER. N HE BIT ME (LOL).IT WAS SO FUNNY BUT NOT COOL.THEN WE JUST STUD ON THE FENCE. THEN HIS SISTER SAID HE WAS IN BIG TROUBLE N HE SAID I BETTER GO BYE LOVE U.N I SAID BYE LOVE U CAUSE I LIKE HAD NO CHOSSE.THEN IT WENT ALL DOWN HILL CAUSE LIKE I WAS SAYING EVERYTHING GOSS AND WRONG WHEN TJ LEAVES.THEN BOBBY WENT TO GET TJ SO HE COULD COME COM ME DOWN BUT HE HAD LEFT THEN WE LEFT TO.THEY SHOULD BE COMING DOWN TOMORROW.I DONT THINK TJ'S GOING TO I THINK HE GOT IN REAL BIG TROUBLE LAST NIGHT.   WHOLE DATE: 9/30/2011   TIME: 11:48 AM  MONTH: SEPTEMBER  YEAR: 2011  DAY: 30TH  PSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS,OMG IM GLAD WE HAD R FIRST GAME TOGETHER.AND IM SO GLAD IT WAS HOMECOMING.BUT NOW HE WONTS ME TO GO TO HIS GAME.I LOVE HIM SO MUCH :) :) :) :) :) :)   OMG...........ALMOST KILLED TRAVIS TODAY  WELL TODAY DIDNT GO LIKE PLANED.TRAVIS WAS TRYING TO START SHIT WITH ME , BOBBY,AND MY SISTER.THEN I WAS SO CLOSE TO BITCH SLAPING THE REAL BITCH JANITA.AND MARCAS TOO.SO CLOSE BUT COULDN'T CAUSE THEN I'D GET OCS N I WONUDN'T HAV BEEN ABLE TO SEE TJ.AND I LOVE THE FACT I THAT I GET TO SEE HIM.OK OK.FIRST HE CAME N STARTED TALKING CRAP TO BOBBY THEN HE WAS TRYING TO SHOW BOBBY EMAILS.THEN I STARTED TO TALK SHIT TO HIM AND HE HAD TO BRENG UP LAST YEAR AND DANIEL.SO I WAS ON A ROLL.JUST GOING ON AND ON.THEN I WALKED AWAY AND ALMOST CRYED AND TJ WENT TO SEE IF I WAS OK.AND I SAID I WAS WHEN I WASN'T.BUT WUT EVER.N THEN WE LEFT N I WENT TO MUSIC.AND AS USEWALL HE WALKED ME TO ALL MY CLASSES N AT THE END OF THE DAY HE GOT A KISS GOOD BYE N A SEE U TOMORROW.SO THATS THAT  WHOLE DATE:10/3/2011  TIME:9:36PM  MONTH:OCTOBER  YEAR:2011  DAY:3TH  PSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS, I LOVE IT WHEN HE KISS'S ME.   WE KISSED AGAIN TWISE!!!!!!   WELL WE KISSED AGAIN TWISE.ONE AT LUNCH N ONE AFTER SCHOOL.LET ME START FROM THE BEGINING.OK OK HE WAS WAITING IN FRONT AGAIN.N WE WENT OUT SIDE THIS TIME.OK I'M JUST GOING TO SKIP TO THE PART WHEN WE KISSED.OK I WAS MAD AT HIM THEN HE KISSED ME THEN AFTER SCHOOL HE KISSED ME BYE AND THATS THAT.  WHOLE DATE:10/4/2011  TIME:4:57  MONTH:SEPTEMBER  YEAR:2011  DAY:4TH  PSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS, I LOVE HIM WITH ALL MY HEART.  COLD  Well today was really cold and nothing really happened. Exepet the fact. that I told TJ I'd always be mad at him .and I felt so bad for being a bitch. So wait go back first he came to hug me n I told him no. and he walked away n his face looked like what the hell did I do. then I went to talk to him and told him it was fine. n he said r u sure like 3 or 5 times n I kept saying yes. then we left. he walked me to class as normul and this time we got to email in class. n I told him that Travis said that he has to kiss me for at least 30 sec. and instead he kissed me for like 5 or 10 sec. Then he kissed me when his bus came n that was that.  WHOLE DATE:9/5/2011  TIME:9:51 PM  MONTH:SEPTEMBER  YEAR:2011  DAY:5TH  PSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS, IM SO GLAD HE STARTED KISSING ME LIKE 2 OR 3 TIMES ADAY.LOL I LOVE HIM WITH ALL MY HEART.  OMG TJ PUT HIS ARMS AROUND ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  OMG OK OK.WELL AT THE BEGINING OF THE DAY ME AND ALEXIS WERE FIGHTING.THEN WE WERE MESSING AROUND PLAYING VOLLYBALL IN PE.THEN SHE TOLD ME THAT HER “SISTER” TURISA SAID “I CHRET TJ LIKE SHIT.AND I DON'T LET HIM HANG OUT WITH ANY OF HIS FRIENDS”.THEN AT LUNCH I WAS ASKING HER IF I COULD TALK TO HER.AND SHE HAD ALEXIS START TALKING SHIT TO ME.SO WE WENT UP THERE TO SEE IF THE BITCH WONTED TO SAY ANYTHING TO MY FACE AND SOME GUY HAD THE NURVE TO TELL TJ “COME HEAR METAL MOUTH”.THEN I HAD TO TELL HIM “SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU DICK”.THEN I TOLD TJ “ONLY I CAN CALL YOU METAL MOUTHAND HE SAID I NOW”.AND IN THE SECOND I WAS TALKING TO HIM MY SISTER PULLED ALEXIXS HAIR AND SHE PUNCHED HER IN THE FACE AND MY SISTER SAID “HELL NO” AND THEY GOT IN A FIGHT AND I KICKED HER IN THE RIBS AND PULLED A HAND FULL OF HAIR OUT OF HER HEAD.AND THEY GOT SESPENDID FOR 3 DAY.AND THEN AFTER SCHOOL TJ CAME OUT THEN HE SAID “THANKS FOR STANDING UP TO THAT GUY WHEN HE CALLED ME METAL MOUTH AND ONLY I CAN CALL YOU METAL MOUTH HE SAID I NOW”.THEN CAME FROM BEHIND ME AND PUT HIS ARMS AROUND ME.IT KINDA FELT WEIERD AT FIRST CAUSE HE ALWAYS WARE'S HIS BELD AND IT WAS ALMOST ON MY ON ASS .THEN MAIO KEPT PUSHING HIM FORWORD SO IT LOOKED WRONG.BUT THEN OUR BUS CAME AND WE HAD TO GO BUT BEFORE WE DID.TJ KISSED ME TWISE.AND TRAVIS KISSED MY SISTER FOR ABOUT 20 OR 30 SECONDS.CAUSE HE WONT BE ABLE TO SEE HER FOR 3 DAYS.AND THAT THAT FOR TO DAY.  WHOLE DATE:OCT. 28,2011  TIME WRITEN:10:37  MONTH:OCTOBER  DAY:28T  YEAR:2011  PSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS, I HOPE TJ KEEPS MOVING FORWARD.IM TIERD OF JUST HUGS,AND HOLDING HAND.I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM MORE THEN ANYTHING IN THE WORLD.I WONT TO ALWAYS BE WITH HIM.I'M HIS JULIET AND HE'S MY ROMEO.  TODAY TJ SAID THAT HE WAS GOING TO BREAK UP WITH ME  TODAY I WENT TO CHECK MY EMAIL AND I HAD A MESSAGE FROM TJ.AND IT SAID “HEY I'M SORRY I'M GOING TO BREAK UP WITH YOU”.AND I DON'T NOW WHEN.I CAN'T CHECK MY EMAILS TILL LATER.SO I GUESS WE'RE NOT FOR EACHOTHER.WELL THAT'S ALL I CAN SAY WITHOUT CRYING.  WHOLE DATE:NOV. 15,2011  TIME WRITEN:9:26AM  MONTH:NOVEMBER  DAY:15TH  YEAR:2011  PSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS, NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS BETWEEN US BUT I'M GONNA LOVE HIM FOREVER.I CON'T NOW ABOUT HIM.SO THAT'S I GUESS WE'RE OVER.  WELL THAT WAS US WHEN WE WERE TOGETHER AND THIS WAS US AFTER   ITS OVER  WELL I GUESS WE'RE OVER.BUT HE SAID WE COULD STILL BE FRIEND.I SAID KK(EVEN THOUHG I DON'T WONT TO).SO NOW I DON'T NOW WHAT TO DO I HATE BEING SINGLE.SO TRAVIS IS TRYING TO GET THIS GUY BRADLEY TO GO OUT WITH ME.HE'S 16.I REALLY DON'T WONT TO.BUT I SINCE I CANT HAVE TJ.I SHOULD JUST MOVE ON.HE TOLD ME TO GO OUT WITH HIM BUT I DON'T NOW.IF HE REALLY WONTS ME TO I WILL.  DATE-NOV. 17,2011  TIME-8:44PM  MONTH-NOVEMBER  YEAR-2011  DAY-17  PSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS,I'M GOING TO DATE BRADLEY.I DON'T NOW IF I CAN GO WITH SEEING TJ ANY MORE. I'M MOVING ON.BUT NO MATTER WHAT I LOVE TJ.4EVER AND ALWAYS. TRUE LOVE.I LOVE TJ.EVER AFTER.  DAY I WISH WE WERE STILL TOGEHTER  SO WHEN WE WERE DATING. I CAN'T STAND THE THOUGHT OF GOING TO SCHOOL ANYMORE.I CAN'T STAND THE THOUGHT OF SEEING TJ WITH ANOTHER GIRL. I WISH I COULD TAKE EVERYTHING BACK.REMEET HIM. AND THEN START OVER.I WANNA GO BACK TO THE BEGING START FRESH.OR GO BACK AND WISH I NEVER MET TJ.BUT IF I DID THAT I WOULD HAVE NEVER MEET.TAVIS,DANIEL,JJ,BRODY,BOBBY,AND TJ.THEN WHAT WOULD'VE HAPPENED.I WOULDN'T BE THE WAY I AM NOW.I WOULDN'T BE EMO AND I WOULDN'T BE ME.AND I LOVE BEING ME.SO I DON'T WANNA CHANGE A THING. BUT GO BACK AND STOP MYSELF FROM BREAKING EVERYONE'S HEARTS.BUT GO BACK AND TAKE BACK SAYING YES TO JOHN.I HATE JOHN.I DIDN'T EVEN SAY YES MY SISTER DID FOR ME.SO I WANNA GO BACK AND TELL TJ.I SHOULD.BUT WHAT DIFFRENTS WOULD THAT MAKE. HE STILL HATES ME.  WHOLE DATE-NOVEMBER 19,2011  MONTH-NOVEMBER  YEAR-2011  DAY19   PSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS, I'M GONNA TELL.SOONER OR LATER.I DON'T WANNA RUAIN ANYTHING.I WONT HIM BACK.BUT I DON'T NOW IF I CAN.HE SAID I CAN'T.BUT I STILL WONT MY ROMEO BACK.HE DISERVE'S TO HAVE HIS JULIET BACK.   DAY I FIGURED OUT HOW MUCH I NEED TJ   WELL ITS BEEN TWO WEEKS SINCE ME AND TJ BROKE UP. AND ITS BEEN KILLING ME.I CANT GO BACK TO SCHOOL. I CANT FACE HIM.I MISS HIM MORE THEN ANYHING.IM KINDA LEARING HOW TO COPE WITH THE FACT THAT IM NOT WITH HIM.I'VE BEEN WRITING THESE POEMS.AND I DIDNT NOW THEY HAVE TO DO WITH TJ TILL I WENT AND READ THEM.I STILL WISH I COULD START OVER.LIKE A DO OVER.I'D TAKE BACK ALL THE THING LIKE CALLING TJ “TGAY,AND I DONT NOW IF HE GOT MAD CAUSE I CALLED HIM METAL MOUTH” BUT TRUTH BE TOLD.I LOVE GUY'S WITH BREASE'S.I DONT NOW WHY.BUT ITS LIKE FUCKEN SEXY MAN.I SHOULE'VE TOLD HIM THAT.BUT I DIDNT.(I'D KILL FOR TJ.OR EVEN HURT MY FAMILY ANYTHING) I WISH GOD COULD HELP ME WITH ALL MY PROMBLEMS.WELL THAT'S THAT EXCEPT THAT FACT THAT MY LIFE IS OVER.  PSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS,  I'D KILL FOR TJ.OR EVEN HURT MY FAMILY ANYTHING. HE'S NOT THE SAME.HE'S DIFFRENT.AND THATS WUT I LOVE ABOUT HIM :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(   FIRST TIMES WITH TJ  FIRST TIME ME AND TJ HELD HANDS-FIRST TIME WE HELD HANDS WAS WHEN I ASKED HIM IF HE WAS CHEATING ON ME,AND THAT TRAVIS SAID HE WAS CHIKEN TO HOLD MY HAND.AND THE FIRST TIME I SAID THAT I LOVE HIM FOR THE FIRST TIME.  WHEN-FIRST TIME WE HELD HANDS WAS WHEN I ASKED HIM IF HE WAS CHEATING ON ME,AND THAT TRAVIS SAID HE WAS CHIKEN TO HOLD MY HAND.AND THE FIRST TIME I SAID THAT I LOVE HIM FOR THE FIRST TIME.  DATE :SEPTEMBER 16,2011  WHEN :IN THE MORNIG  MONTH :SETEMBER  YEAR :2011  DAY :16TH  FIRST TIME WE KISSED – WELL WE WERE BEHIND THE SCHOOL LIKE ALWAYS AND IT WAS THE TIME THAT WE ALWAYS HEDE OUT.AND BOBBYS SAID “MAYBE WE SHOULD START HEDING OUT.”THEN TJ SAID “WE'LL START HEDING OUT AFTER I DO THIS” AND THEN HE KISSED ME.IT WAS TODALY UNCALLED FOR WHICH MAD IT WAY MORE ROMANTIC.OH AND I WAS WARING HIS HAT.  DATE:SEPTEMBER 21,2011  WHEN:AT LUNCH  MONTH:SEPTEMBER  YEAR:2011  DAY:21ST  FIRST DAY WE STARED DATEING -WAS WHEN I MET HIM THE DAY BEFORE.AND I ASKED BOBBY TO ASK HIM OUT FOR ME.AND HE SAID HE HAD TO THINK CAUSE HE'S NEVER BEEN ASKED OUT HE ALWAYS ASKED GIRLS OUT.BUT THEN AT KUNCH I HAD BOBBY GO ASK HIM WUT HIS ANSWER WAS.AND HE SAID YES.BUT I DIDN'T BELIEVE HIM SO BOBBY WENT AND TOOK HIS LAPTOP AND PUT IT NEXT TO ME SO HE SAT BY ME.THEN MARCAS G. ASKED HIM IF HE WAS DATING ME AND HE SAID YES.SO THATS WHEN WE STARED DATING.  DATE:SEPTEMBER 14,2011  WHEN:AT LUNCH  MONTH:SEPTEMBER  YEAR:2011  DAY:14TH  FIRST TIME HE PUT HIS ARM AROUND MY NECK-WAS WHEN I ASKED HIM IF HE WAS CHEATING ON ME,AND THAT TRAVIS SAID HE WAS CHICKEN TO HOLD.AND THE FIRST TIME I SAID THAT I LOVE HIM FOR THE FIRST TIME.  DATE:SEPTEMBER 16 2011  WHEN:IN THE MORNING WHEN WE WERE GOING IN TO THE BUILDING.AND WHEN HE WAS GOING TO WALK ME TO CLASS.  MONTH:SEPTEMBER  YEAR:2011  DAY:16TH  THE FIRST TIME I DISITED TO CHEAT ON TJ: WAS WHEN JOHN ASKED ME OUT AND I COULDN'T HELP BUT SAY YES IM SO SCARD TJ'S GOING TO FIND OUT.  DATE:OCTOBER 13,2011  WHEN :AFTER MUSIC IN S.S. WHEN ME AND TRAVIS WERE WORKING TOGETHER.AND LONG AFTER I ASKED HIM IF HE WONTED TO BE MORE THEN FRIENDS AND THAT HE WAS GOING HATF TO ASK ME.  MONTH:OCTOBER  YEAR:2011  DAY:13TH  FIRST TIME I DISITED TO BREAK UP WITH TJ:WAS WHEN JOHN ASKED IF HE COULD GET MY NAME TATTOED ON TO HIS CHEST.AND THE DAY HE STOLE MY HEART.  DATE:OCTOBER 17,2011  WHEN:AFTER SCHOOL ON A HAFT DAY.  MONTH:OCTOBER  YEAR:2011  DAY:17TH  FIRST TIME ME AND TJ BROKE UP-WAS WHEN I WAS GONE IN BEISBE.CAUSE MY CUSIN DIED.AND I DON'T NOW WHAT HAPPENED .ALL HE DID WAS EMAIL ME ASKING FOR HIS HATS BACK.  DATE-NOV. 11,2011  WHEN-WAS WHEN I WENT TO GET MY HOMEWORK OFF MY MOODLE AND I HAD AN EMAIL FORM HIM AND IT SAID “I'M SORRY SHADOW BUT I'M BREAKING UP WITH YOU”.I STARTED TO CRY.I COULDN'T DO ANYTHING.MY LIFE WAS OVER.I LOST THE GUY THAT I LOVE MORE THEN ANYONE,OR ANYTHING IN THE WORLD.  MONTH-NOVEMBER  YEAR-2011  DAY-11TH  FIRST TIME I REALASIZE I SHOULDN'T HAVE EVEN SAID YES TO JOHN-WAS WHEN I FOUND OUT TJ WAS CHEATING ON ME.AND WHEN I FOUND OUT TJ WAS DATING ALEXIS. AND WHEN I FOUND OUT THAT I CANT LIVE WITHOUT TJ. AND THE TIME WHEN I SHOULD HAVE NEVER LET GO OF THE ONE GUY THAT MEAN'S THE WORLD TO ME.AND THE DAY I REALIZIED THAT I DON'T DISERVE A GUY LIKE TJ.  DATE-NOVEMBER 18,2011  WHEN-WHEN I FOUND OUT HE WAS DATING ALEXIS.AND I REALIZED THAT I LOST THE ONLY THING I LOVE MORE THEN ANYTHING.  MONTH-NOVEMBER  YEAR-2011  DAY-18  FIRST TIME I REALASIZE HOW MUCH I MISS TJ-2 WEEKS AFTER HE BROKE UP WITH ME.AND I THINK IM GOING TO KILL MYSELF.IM NOT GOOD WITH PAIN.  DATE-NOVEMBER 24,2011  WHEN-2 WEEKS AFTER HE BROKE UP WITH ME.AND I THINK IM GOING TO KILL MYSELF.IM NOT GOOD WITH PAIN.  MONTH-NOVEMBER  YEAR-2011  DAY-24  TIME WRITEN 
   
   
   
   Bobby 
    “SEC. 3 BOBBY”  ME AND BOBBY HELD HANDS  SO TODAY WAS THE FEASTAVOL OF LIGHTS.AND ME,BOBBY,CHRIS,AND MY SISTER.WERE HANGING OUT.AND THEN WELL I'M JUST SKIPING TO IT.WELL FIRST HE HIT ME IN THE JGA.OK MY SISTER AND CHRIS WERE SUPOSTO KISS BUT I WAS SITING ON THE WALL RIGHT THERE AND BOBBY WAS BUGING THE FUCK OUT OF ME CAUSE I WOULDN'T LET HIM HOLD MY HAND.BUT THEN I THINK HE'S ALL “DO I HAVE TO”.AND I'M ALL “OH MY GOD FINE BOBBY FINE”. THEN HE TOLD MY SISTER AND CHRIS TO JUST FUCKEN DO THERE DARE ALRETY.CHRIS IS ALL “WHY” AND BOBBY'S ALL “I GOT MY WISH”.THEN CHRIS IS ALL “SHE'S LETTING YOU HOLD HER HAND”BOBBY SAID “YES”SO THEN CHRIS TOLD US TO GO.THEN THE PIRADE STARTED AND WE WONTED TO GO WHATCH IT BUT CHRIS DIDN'T.SO WE WENT HATF WAY SO WE COULD SEE.THEN BOBBY WAS TRYING TO KISS ME BUT I WOULDN'T LET HIM.SO WE WERE PLAYING FOLLOW THE LEADER CAUSE HE WOULDN'T LET ME GO.THEN HE KEPT ALMOST MAKING ME FALL.THEN HE FUCKEN HIT ME IN THE NOSE.AND IT FUCKEN HURT LIKE HELL.BUT HE SAID HE WAS SORRY LIKE ABILLION TIME'S.BUT THEN NO MATTER WHAT I WOULDN'T LET HIM KISS ME.THEN HE HAD TO GO.SO YA.THAT'S THAT.  PSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS,  WELL MY SISTER AND CHRIS GOT BACK TOGETHER WITCH LEAVE'S ME WITH A BIG PROMLOM.CAUSE I TOLD TJ THAT WHEN MY SISTER BREAK'S UP WITH HIM WE CAN GO BACK OUT.THAT WAS THE PLANE BUT I FOUND OUT HOW MUCH I LOVE BOBBY.SO I CAN'T BREAK UP WITH HIM.I REALLY REALLY LOVE BOBBY THOUGH.SO HAHA TJ'S JUST GONNA HAVE TO WAIT.I LOVE BOBBY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  we got back together im so happy  12/13/11  FRIST TIME'S WITH BOBBY  FIRST TIME ME AND BOBBY HELD HANDS-AT THE FESTAVIL OF LIGHT'S WHEN MY SISTER AND CHRIS WERE BE HIND THE WALL AND I WAS LOOKING AT THEM HE JUST GRABED MY HAND LOL.  WHEN-AT THE FESTAVIL OF LIGHT'S WHNE MY SISTER AND CHRIS WERE BE HIND THE WALL AND I WAS LOOKING AT THEM.  DATE :12/3/2011  WHEN :AT THE FESTIAVL OF LIGHTS  MONTH :DECEMBER  YEAR :2011  DAY :3RD  FIRST TIME ME AND BOBBY BROKE UP-WAS WHEN I WAS MESSING AROUND WITH HIM ON THE PHONE.AND TOLD HIM THAT MY CUZIN SAW HIM HOLDING HANDS WITH ANOTHER GIRL.AND HE TOLD ME HE WAS WITH JACKIE. AND THAT IT JUST HAPPENED.DUDE I BEGGED HIM NOT TO.I TOLD HIM IT WAS FINE BUT HE SAID NO ITS NOT THEN HE HAD TYLER BREAK UP WITH ME FOR HIM.  WHEN-WAS WHEN I WAS MESSING AROUND WITH HIM ON THE PHONE.AND TOLD HIM THAT MY CUZIN SAW HIM HOLDING HANDS WITH ANOTHER GIRL.AND HE TOLD ME HE WAS WITH JACKIE. AND THAT IT JUST HAPPENED.DUDE I BEGGED HIM NOT TO.I TOLD HIM IT WAS FINE BUT HE SAID NO ITS NOT THE HAD TYLER BREAK UP WITH ME FOR HIM.  DATE :12/13/2011  WHEN :OVER THE PHONE  MONTH :DECEMBER  YEAR :2011  DAY :13TH 
   
   
   Publication Date: May 18th 2016 https://www.bookrix.com/-bullet789