I really can't say this was a pleasant day. But at least I was able to finally get an answer I have been looking for. It might not be the one I wanted but it is closer none the less. I am not one to dwell on things I can't change I just need to move on and think what is it I want to do with my life. I came to the realization that I don't want to be in anyone's shadow anymore. I will stand on my own and become something I can be proud of.