Part of you felt guilty, like you were confessing this to her, but this really was all so you could keep her safe until she came out. You'd probably let her know again then, just so she wouldn't be surprised by anything Chrysalis might have to say. You owed her that. You two never did establish what you were, just that you loved each other, but that didn't mean in love, right? There were different kinds of love, the Changelings even said so themselves. Maybe you meant one thing and she meant another. Hell, she even knew you were going to fuck around while she was in the cocoon, but it didn't mean you were off the hook.