That hurt you a bit. Not the fact you were already dead to them because, well... you were. But the fact that you'd just get to move on, not even capable of feeling guilt over everything, meanwhile they'd be left with the mess that you left them with. War, sorrow, and so much more. Not that you could change any of that now, but the idea you'd walk away from it all without at least feeling the guilt of doing it, it just felt wrong.