I think I needed to reevaluate where I stood in life. This was the biggest slap in the face I desperately needed. The reality of my situation, the one I had brought upon myself, was steadily becoming clearer and clearer. I nearly caused a child to lose her life, for crying out loud! Thanks to me and my crazy antics, a mother would’ve outlived her only offspring- and just imagining that felt wrong on so many levels.