"Because in all honesty, I wasn't fully certain that you were going to want a one-and-done thing. Like you just want a taste of what I've got going on in my pants, then get bored. I was going to hold out until I couldn't possibly resist it any longer, but when I got the option to command you, I decided to use it to make it a long term thing," you explained. Indeed, that had been part of the reason you'd held out. If you were going to blow your load only once while stuck in this hive, you were going to make it count.