After some time to let my anxious thoughts settle, I begin to feel like it isn't so awful to think that John cares. I guess I have to admit it's sort of a relief; It means I don't have to constantly be looking out for myself in every direction. Someone has my back. That's a new feeling. Hell, interacting with anyone on a regular basis, let alone in a casual manner is new for me. All I really remember from birth until arriving here is virtual isolation.