I don't know if you've kept this journal.  I don't know if you'll be the one to read this, but I hope you kept it for old time's sake. I was not able to send this letter in any other manner, and... after my poor decision in a heated moment, I was afraid to write my regrets, my thoughts, and my apologies here. Before courage fails me, I have copied that letter as written, and I pray it finds you well.