Everyone thinks of AJ as this unshakable mare that nothing can ever get to her.  I realized a long time ago that isn't the case. She is strong that much is true but she cares a lot about her family. AJ worries about them all the time and wants them to be safe. So the idea that she could have lost two of them must be terrifying to her. As I look at her trying to hold back her tears I decided she doesn't need to pretend with us, her friends. I then lean over and pull her into the bed and pull her into a hug.