His voice wavered as he spoke and he refused to meet her eye. "There are people back home, Rainbow. People I know, that I… that I miss. We all did what we had to do, but they’re good people. They do their best. They would do anything to have this. These are people who've lost it all. And now I'm here, and I don't even have a clue what to do with the best second chance you could ask for. I..." He sniffed and swallowed hard. "How stupid is that?"