"I did kill you. I watched your body get ripped apart, listened to your screaming, the light of your eyes disappear before it all became red." Rainbow blinked, feeling something hot trail down her cheek as the butterflies gathered and scattered, only growing in number. "I felt anger when I heard you screwed up your exam. I knew that you wouldn't have a place in the Guard, since a stubborn mare like you... like me, would never follow orders. And since life in a camp would be worse than death, I put you in the grinder. Figured you'd be more useful as a rainbow."